shmily

Idle

2011-12-19T00:00:00.002+08:00

This blog is closing down.
All my update will be at my tumblr. hehe...
http://lengshmily.tumblr.com/

Tumblrrrrrr shooting

2011-09-30T13:06:00.000+08:00

Guys, i've been inactive in blogging for sooooo long.
Just don't feel like to write something long and naggy you know.
So, i turn to TUMBLR!

Blogger makes me feel very "diary" or "reporting" for all this while.
Not an exact place for me to pop out my outrageous idea. HAHAHA kidding.
But i still like here.
Too many things happened in the past few months since my post grad life started.
Too much to tell & too much to write them down.

Big big occasion will updated with details over here in the future for sure!
Daily life basis or some naughty thingy will be over there. Hehe...see you there!

bersihkan lab mouse life

2011-07-07T16:29:00.001+08:00

If you got my facebook, sure you'll know i've been updating the BERSIH latest news lately.

Why? I'm not actually interested in what they're doing but i'm seriously don't like how the government treat its nation, like we are some kind of puppet.

People wants peace, wants improvement, wants democracy, wants transparency. It is something too much for us to ask for?

Media, man power, money, system, EVERYTHING are in their hands and shape us whatever they like us to be.

We've been resilient, tolerant, obedient, mouth-shutting for how many years? Most of the people don't understand what is happening around us cause we choose to shut our eyes, our ears, our mouth up and pray for the "justice" or "equal".

If all of us are satisfied, why we react so grateful and happy when "equal" and "fair" are shown in our daily life?

I am not confident in Malaysia. Yes, this is my country. I love it. I love everyone, I enjoy being a Malaysian, mixing around, experiencing different culture and different food, but hey, are you trusting Malaysia's education system? political system? or should I ask "are you confident with our own systems?"

Huhh...sorry for all the craps.

Lab mouse chapter.

Yes. I am officially a lab mouse right now. Believe me or not, i am a lazy bum. You push me, then I will move a step.

You put a lot of pressure on me, I will move a mile away.

That is what happened for me in these recent 2 weeks.

My boss went to Germany for the Nobel laureates something something and my ladies boss went Hong Kong.

You would think that "Wah, so nice hor, got 2 weeks holiday leh!"

Sorry loh. My bosses sent me a very, absolutely, definitely clear message that they want to see some progression when they are back in Malaysia next Monday.

Before they left Malaysia, my ladies boss asked :[Kai Leng, have you read the papers I gave me last time?]

Guys, the last time is 2 months ago.

I replied [Umm...i read them but i'm not really understand it....]

[Kai Leng, I've been listening to this answer for many weeks, what you've been doing?!]

[Umm....um......um..................................]

and my boss sent me an email after he left Malaysia.

[You need to do following things......bla bla bla... Make sure you get all the information in hand by 11 July 2011.]

I print screen and put it on my desktop to remind me the tasks I need to do before they are back.

So, am I still in vacation right now?

I picked up the coffee I quit one year ago and keep convincing myself that I AM MOTIVATED, NOT STRESSED! Hahahahahhaha! Anyway, I am truly enjoy my lab mouse life =) Cheers!

Finale of my Biomedical science degree life

2011-05-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

Fancy outing? CHECKED
Fancy food? CHECKED
Fancy job secured? CHECKED
Drunk by drinking korean soju and rice wine? CHECKED
Maintained moderate cgpa? CHECKED
Played hard? CHECKED
Get to know someone cool? CHECKED
Harmonized with coursemates? CHECKED
Did what i want? CHECKED
Study hard? CHECKED
Explored new stuff within myself? CHECKED
Did something desperately? CHECKED
Volunteered something? CHECKED
Learnt new language? CHECKED
Organized activities? either suka-rela or paksa-rela... CHECKED
Internet + laptop skills? CHECKED
Tears and laughters? CHECKED
Dance? CHECKED
Soul mates found? CHECKED
Band vocalist?CHECKED
Clubbing/ pub-ing? CHECKED
Vacation? CHECKED
Hurt someone? CHECKED
NO regrets? CHECKED.

End of my degree chapter. Let's start a brand new chapter babe!

Roller coaster chapter 1

2011-04-23T15:54:00.001+08:00

Life is such a roller coaster and i'm just a passenger on it.

Decided to work as normal worker without any ambitious or any major plan in 2 years,

however, here i am. Go back to the research path.

Surprisingly, everything seems natural for me.

Before this, i was like - "either hometown and take care of my family or KL area and truly join the battle field."

Either dormant or active, that's all.

I think everything changed, starting on the moment i apply for the master project.

Unexpected, seriously.

First thought was just want to try my luck.

Accepted to work on this master project is largely due to my animated slide presentation.

That's another luck-trying. Luckily, it was not as bad as i thought it to be.

right now i'm still in disbelief. man....i'm going to further study.

Sincerely thanks my course mates for letting me move in to their house.

Flash back to the interview. I made some pretty stupid mistakes.

[So, do you have any other question?]

Ya, i'm not sure i can come in June, cause i still haven't find housing.

[Well, you can ask those postgrads out there........old flat......K12......]

Yeah, but i also need to find transport cause i don't have transport.

[Well, bus services from old flat, UPM...equine park.............]

I was nodding my head for the entire session. In the end, i think he quite annoyed with this "problem" and said

[These are not an obstacle for you at all..............] etc tec

I was "yeah", "u-huh, u-huh", and Dr Cheah was observing me all the time while Dr Michael Ling did all the talking.

Then, come back to the same question.

[Do you have any other questions?]

I said "ya, so basically i will do all the reading etc etc in the first month, then start to do work on the second month?"and also "What time should i come for the lab? 9am??" and so on.

After a 5 hours nap, i started to roll my brain when i did my laundary.

"stupid me....holy crap....it was so unnecessary....bugging bout housing, transport & blah blah blah, oh shit...." was the only thing i got.

I did it badly, it's so sad. I could have handled it better.

My brain just jammed up and can't roll like it used to be.

Blame it to the acute (2 weeks) sleep deprivation.

I'm going to have a Nigerian who published 4 papers as a degree holder and a Moroccan as teammates.

I was so traumatized till i can't help to keep thinking to improve myself.

I admit that i'm the worst in the neuroscience team. That's so sad.

Told my roommate bout this whole stuff yesterday.

[For the whole 6 months, they are going to shake their heads and go "tsk tsk tsk..." to me] I said.

[Try your best, you can do it, keep improving....] my roommate said.

then she asked [What's your mum's reaction bout this?]

Sadly, my mum was so tired and can't processed my words.

In brief, my mum said [Find a house first lah, then see how loh, as long as you can provide yourself a meal, its okay...]

I said [but mum...i want MONEY....MONEY LEH.....]

[I also want money ah, but you sendiri decide lah]

[Ooh.......]

So, basically, i'm on myself now.

I want to do research with a great pay. Money is my ultimate goal. You can call me materialistic or money-faced, but i'm loved money. That's the truth of me.

Meh......going to work it out anyway.

Since i'm on the battle field, let's fight for our meals babe!

P.S: Siew, korea trip might postponed oh....sorry...

Sisters, let meet up in June/July ya!

Blistering blister

2011-04-07T13:41:00.001+08:00

Till now i still wonder why i didn't feel any anxious and worries bout my hand.

Kay, story is like this.

One day i go to beach and la la la....i snorkeling, la la la...i put on all the sunblock, la la la....i eat plenty of fish, Oh, sorry, plenty of food, then la la la....i play with sea water all the time.

Come back to K17, nothing happened in my 1st day, but next my right hand, to be precisely, starts to get ITCHY.

So, i scratch loh.

The next day, BOOH! My right hand become black, especially the fingers. Back of my palm got some elderly age-marks.

1st day of darkening. See the half black middle finger?

So, i put lots and lots of lotion.

The next day, BAAM! Got 3 biji blisters!
I still thinking bout going to see doctor or not.
My family quite anxious bout all the cancer stuff, radiation from Japan lah etc etc....

Watching both of my hand, i feel nothing.
Bleach it? nah, never think of it.
No more evenly skin tone? hm..maybe.
All the scar and pigmentation, i feel normal. Perhaps i lost the sense of beauty.
Scar will heal eventually. Pigmentation will come as i'm getting older.

But i still wonder why i didn't feel anxious and feel ugly when i'm looking at my hands.
One thing for sure, cancer.
Not going to let my family to worry bout cancer. Comes to my thought that the croton oil i used in my FYP might exert something.
Everything comes with it own risk.
If this is the secondary sun burnt i've got from the Redang coke, i would love it =)

PS: Love, how bout we going to Krabi next year?

Rule ya!

2011-03-31T00:59:00.000+08:00

Still have another, uhm...35 days till i can BREAK FREE!
Finally, im going to graduate!
Yay! I can't wait to start my whole new chapter of life.
Guess what? I'm going to get myself a danboard, a driving license, a brand new handphone and plenty of trip & travel after all this shit gets over!
I'm so going to take a road ahead and go!
Malacca trip with family first, Korea trip with loved Siew maybe.
Screw the bloody hell 2012 or something-look-a-like, i'm in charge of my life now!
Well, i'm not a missionary type of person. I'm a selfish bitch.
Try to get into my fishy zone if you want to get stink with me, i'm promise ya, no pain, no gain =)))
Oh, perhaps i'm just getting a little bit hype over here, some coffee job, ops, sorry.
I'm not a drunker, no, well, occasionally.
I must be crazy right now thinking bout all this, all i ever got to do is finish my result part 2 and start squeezing my discussion. Vomit out intro & literature review afterward.
Uhm...must be the "Redang island trip" coke.
Tomorrow is my redang trip day with another 2 pretty-cool-crazy biachi. Threesome sounds nice for me as i prefer some loneliness right now. I wanna enjoy the wind, the sea, the fish and the people!
Till then, stay tuned my love, ain't left ya'all out of this.

PS. 니가 필요해, 좋아해, 보고 싶은데, 경우에도 니가 몰라요.

2nd Malacca trip

2011-03-22T23:51:00.001+08:00

Going to Malacca wasn't my intention in the 1st place due to all the fuss bout symposium i went last weekend, i'm quite tired to start a trip.

But, BOO! I'm going Malacca anyway coz i want to PLAY HARD.

1 hour of chit chatting bout Japanese language with Ah Pak (SSS = driver) made me realized actually i'm pretty much familiar with some common sentence in Japanese. Hm...some credit to those BG & BL PC games i played.

We went to restaurant number 88! Haha, this number is so lucky. I have the chance to eat something Ah ken recommended......................Nyonya Laksa!!

Seriously, it is sour, spicy and loaded with meat. Lovin' it! The curry-look-alike below is Baba laksa! No santan but something like milk was put to bring out the laksa flavor, a little bit of milk sweet as you savor the laksa soup.

Well, this one is a real stuff. Durian Cendol! I couldn't see the durian flesh there, i think they make it into some kind of creamy paste. I never knew durian can make cendol taste so special (in a good way LOL). 4 stars for this!!

Picture below illustrated DURIAN PUFF!! It was so tasty till the durian cream was burst our of SSS's mouth, muahahha! Thanks SSS for the entertainment-ness. 4 stars for this too! The shop is just beside "88" with 8 steps distance.

Next is our final and the ultimate intention of this Malacca trip.

Mille Crepe from Nadeje restaurant !

Thousands layer of crepe are filled with cream and mousse! I love the texture in my mouth, especially the original flavor. Light sweet with some honey-like fragrance had abducted my taste buds. I bet this will beat secret recipe up if they open their outlet at KL.

Exhausted after all the rush bout my "material and method", im so dead tired so i slept all the way back K17.

*The bigger the pressure i've got, the stronger the urge to free myself out of this shyt. Blah, teenage rebellion? Guess so.

Oh ya, credits to my roomie for these pics!

Eyes opening

2011-03-15T14:55:00.000+08:00

After attending the biomedic symposium, i realized i need a change. i mean an extreme makeover. From presentation style to my future view. I tend to narrow my sight due to my lack of confidence and more.

Things can be totally different if i hold them in another way.
I need to be creative, innovative, meticulous and most importantly BE BOLD.

Seriously, i never regret of be friend with some person in my course. They open my eyes to a wider view, not to become a typical chinese and learn to be a enjoyably and capable person.

I never forget how things changed in my eyes as i observe everything flow around me. For those who persist till the end, i admire you. For those who changed for the better, i envy of you. For those who seek for a new direction, i am going to learn from you.

I've been asleep for 3 years.

For this last semester, i want to race in my full speed and challenge myself to a higher potential.

I want to see where i am capable to reach after what i had achieved in my STPM.

Such a regret that i didn't make "TO WIN" as my goal in this symposium, meh....instead I'm doing "AVOID BEING EMBARRASSED /LOSE FACE". Perhaps thing will be different if i determined to win in the first place.Uhh, after a second thought. Nope. Because my presentation style is just WAY OFF compared to others. This kind of thing can't build overnight, so meh... take it as a lesson so i can do much much better in my VIVA later =))))

I am so fortunate that i was not choosing other PKK course except for life cycle for this semester. Transgenic & Medical Biotech did actually help me a lot in understand things outside my "skin cancer mouse model" box. Plus, Ethnopharmacology really boost my confident & knowledge about my FYP. Everything is related. Thanks for my sane which comes around last minute, thanks god.

And thanks god for letting me taste some heavenly seafood in Kuantan!

苦与甘

2011-01-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

有时觉得自己真的是有点那个的。。。
深知自己是个需要外来动力才能向前走的人，不然你就会看到我继续的颓废下去，蘑菇就一直种一直种。
茅塞顿开，是我这一次的感觉。
之前的任性，漠视等等等等都是我的前奏。
看请了自己前面的选择，我一点都不后悔，因为早在几年前我就已经决定和他们呆在一起。
他们才是我的归宿。
责任感？不是，我不是个责任感的人。赋予我的责任只要在我眼中或心中没有重量是个零，更谈不上是个包袱。
不甘于现状？对。我是个有野心的人，不过你们看不到它的方向。
我不会说出：“为了他们” 这种话，因为那是推卸的说辞。
甘心，开心，愿意呆在一起，是我的选择，甘之如饴。

坦白说，我是个喜欢自虐的人。
小说啦，感情啦，课业啦，有虐才能感受果实的甜美嘛。
看着以前会觉得是“背叛”的事情，淡然是我的感觉。
原来，当我建筑在他的信任上的感情淡然至消失，连所谓的“背叛”都没有impact power了。
当初的要生要死到现在的平淡，我深悟原来一开始就没有所谓的“感情”。
难怪他人总说爱情是盲目的。真的。
冷漠吗？不是。是一开始就以局外者的角度去尝试感受局内者的惊涛骇浪。
真的是超爱自虐的我。

友人说的话，一直让我有肯定又疑惑的感觉。
我没自信能给我的爱人幸福。
是的。这点，我是自卑的。
发放开去追并不是我的勇敢，而是我的逞强。
也许，我们都适合平淡的爱情吧？不求轰轰烈烈，但求细水长流，好让我们以后细细品尝，对吧？
自虐的我配上淡如水却犹如空气般自然的爱情，怪。
来吧来吧，替我把幕帘拉开，让我看看世人所深信又唾弃的感情是怎么个虐法。

Diary 2011

2011-01-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

Let me talk this briefly.
It's my final semester.
I have decided.
Im going home and work.
Further study? After i settle my family down, when i finally can "RIP", then i will pursuit what i want. Well, probably "what i want" at that time will be different though.

FYP is making my hair go fuzzy and lesser and lesser =.=
Hopefully i can make it a go.

Others? Not my priority now. I need to be "RIP" then i can continue other stuff.

So, ciao!

Feed my savage beast beb!

2010-12-28T11:40:00.000+08:00

*KACHING* *KACHING*

After my "survey" trip at Petaling Street with my roommate, today I am going to bring my dearest dear to feed our savage beast!
I can feel the excitement in my blood, wahahha!
In addition, its Siew who is coming to me, hohoho~ finally the asleep me is awaken.

And i am blaming my idle life for forgetting my toxicity mice, nah...they are still alive and jumping.
ONE MORE WEEK, one more week i shall be freed!!
and i am going home. Finally.

Resume my Bleach-ing life and as usual, Aizen is the most handsome & sexy one XD
Too bad he is the antagonist, but maybe because he is the bad guy so i think he is sexy....hmm.....一切尽在不言中....

Redang trip is pulling my hair. There is no more below RM400 trip included 2-way bus ticket as they raised the price since last year. Sigh.
So, it will be approximately RM450 (include marine park lah, snorkeling gadget lah, transport fees from KL to KT to Merang Jetty).
Haih, thought that i can get a cheaper price for a relatively comfortable place as I've got a tight budget for this semester.
Anyway, it is a getaway & reward, shall enjoy it to the max =)

House Rulez

2010-12-20T02:44:00.001+08:00

In love with House Rulez AGAIN..
Never knew, it will be that lovely when it combines with voice, yes, voice.

New and sweet feeling, sink me to the deep blue sleep, hehe..

Here are they.

1. Romance http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ur_QMRy3jQ&feature=player_embedded
2. After Moon http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E5S88-vq1Bg&feature=player_embedded

Anyway, sweet dream my angels... =)

飘渺

2010-12-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

本以为把一切都放下了，岂知一句话就把我打回原形。
果然还没有释怀，它依然还是我的底线。

也许是我强求了，也许一开始就错了，错在我的贪。
原来我是贪的。
贪心地想把所有的都放进心里，他人却不明
也以为放不进了，也不放了，怎知点点滴滴都蛀进去了，可笑
笑我的傻，痴，更笑我的胆怯。

习惯性的麻痹和空白在那一刻才发现到头来原来都是我的逃避，
习惯性的无视，习惯性的忽略原来只是逃避，
模糊自己的感觉，只为了多一刻，再多一刻，就多那一刻。

想起那句他人对我说的“心思细腻”，无奈
深切的无奈
多想神经大条的继续感受着那一刻，继续在那一刻里假寐

也罢，
既然不明，既然不了，既然如此，如你所愿
我也不想在原地等着看着你，
也不想追着背影，回头一瞥，看见的并不是原来的画面
也罢，
既然不愿看清，既然都不愿看得再深，如你所愿
背负那些底线
只希望能还我心飘渺，一点一滴的放下，直到我再也不放，也放不进任何东西
愿还我心飘渺

腐女

2010-12-08T16:18:00.000+08:00

现在，我officially是个腐女了！

玩乙女和BL游戏，从纯洁到不纯洁的，玩得我一直呵呵大笑，对的，不是哈哈大笑，因为我是在奸笑。
BL男都比乙女的帅多了，又性感，又有阳光的，忧郁的，难怪腐女都说“BL王道！！”
因为我也全力支持BL!!
不过，我还没有那么大的胃口去玩GL。
一，太萝莉
二，没有美男。是美男，是第二/第三空间的美男，不是肌肉叔哦
三，声优太刺耳，不好听
四，我不是les。

玩了酱多个game，我腐女的第一次是给了“暗黑女王外传”，对于初学者而言是简单了。

给过后又玩了，“银之冠碧之泪”，差点让我喷鼻血，成年人之间的关系果然还是不适合我啊，在选择要不要出轨叻，要不要叻，就很烦，太深沉了。

接下来，就是乙女向的经典游戏“Under the moon"。还记得，几年前下载了日文版，不会玩也不会看，就不了了之了。基本上，我很想skip掉那些那个的情节的，可是男主又只要在那个时候才告白啦，惭愧啦，所以我都是遮掉图片，看字幕而已（不然我的roommate & housemate会吓死叻! 难怪他们说UTM其实是乙男向的画面啦，切！）

第四个，就是我人生第一次尝试BL game就是黑执事的同人游戏“Question”啦。老实说，我还以为我会很反感，因为里面有3P，蜡烛，鞭子，原来。。其实。。。唉，自己去看吧。原来Sebastian你.....

第五个，玩了一个星期都还没有破完的彩云国物语同人游戏“白花恋诗本传”。在这里，我深深的体会到玩game的SL大法（就是save & load是也），玩到我很pek cek，追一个男生还要死命打工，约他出来，送礼送礼，麻烦。
That's why i move to the next game,hehe...那个白花恋诗就等我有空的时候才去追静兰吧。

放弃白花恋诗的当晚，我就破了薄樱鬼同人游戏“邂逅”，哈哈，原来我还没失水准。

接下来，我应该会慢慢玩吧，因为现在手头上有27新game。
现在呢比较有mood看原创小说。
BL的小说我还是不敢看，因为怕看了我不敢玩game。
嗯。。。这之中的深意你们有机会就慢慢的去体验吧。

上面game的玩后感和攻略，下回才补上，现在我要开始“ 琉璃般若花”。。。

Winterplay. A fusion jazz band

2010-11-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

Accidentally discover this fusion jazz band and yeap, it is from Korea with the name of "Winterplay".
Seriously, their albums keep replay and replay in my TTplayer.
I never thought i would fall in love with jazz.

Come back with their second album "Touche Mon Amour", i am truly captivated by its mischievous yet "lazy" melody with her sexy voice.
Don't believe me? Download it here. http://www.mediafire.com/?c7acm5vzeya7cqr
Their debut album called "Choco snowball" also available here.http://www.mediafire.com/?btjarn2ghyw

"Quando, Quando, Quando" and their hit song "Touche mon amour" are my favorite songs of all.
Some of their songs are sentimental yet some are playful like whispers between lovers and mates.

For more details, visit their site =) http://www.winterplay.net/

穿

2010-10-31T15:47:00.001+08:00

惨了，最近偶的小说瘾越来越有严重的趋向了。
天天都看原创，我发现原创总是离不开穿越这个环节。
架空穿越啦，古代穿越啦，神仙的等等等等

还有发现NP也不错，呃。。。不是那个，是指一女N男的言情啦，
原创的一对一更能赚人热泪，因为更多的波折啊，
呵呵。。情，就是要经过三波四折才能坚牢滴。

真的很佩服这堆作家，上至60岁，下至10岁都能创言情！
不过其实原创的比较有人情味点啊，比较实在，偶不怎么好传统的言情，太花俏，没啥真实感，唉。。

不过呢偶还是不能看男男滴，就是所谓的耿美啦，不是联美，是耿美，“耿”读geng第三声，
不管是一对一还是一男N男，都不能。
不过呢，以后的事谁知道呢？
现在偶都能接受NP了，酱偶看男男的日子指日可待啊～
搞不好，偶以后最喜欢的是男男叻，呵呵呵。。

现在偶的记录是一天千多页的小说，吼吼吼！
害偶两个早上不能起身去看偶的老鼠们，闷。。。

唉。。讲完了，回来原本的我。
今天就要部署我明天的韩文会话考试了，唉。。

Corrupted ingredient

2010-10-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

The whole culture is corrupted. I realized. After 3 years of staying here with my Biomedical science.
Is it my fault? It is my final year here, i can't stand the so-called relax yet stressful lifestyle here.
Maybe it is due to my supervisor, my project title or it is just me.

She graduated this year i guess.
I always admire her passion for her dance and her group. I can see she devoted her whole heart on it.
and she tells this to her juniors.
"invest everything you have. embrace the fact that it’s your last year. welcome the pain of saying “bye” because dc is worth your tears & heartaches. ..oh and don’t forget to spoil the newbies"

Bam. I am not a good investor, i am a coward and i am a cruel bitch.
However now i want to take in everything as i did before when i was a newbie cause it's my last time for doing so.

I've been stepping on the same place for 3 years. I am not improving myself, i knew it.
Where is my future? Where am i in the next 5 years?
Deep down inside, i am truly afraid. I am terrify of stepping out. Same as what i am 3 years ago.

I have been wasting 3 years for nothing.
I have nothing to be proud of. Academic? PLEASE....not the top and not the lousiest.
and the "hard-to-teach" skills? I am a coward, i am, from what i did in my finishing school.
Kind of disappointed of myself.

Need some self-searching. Need some break though.
Need the determination i had during my STPM exam.
Need to be freed from this corrupted ingredient of mine.

都是烦

2010-10-12T18:10:00.002+08:00

明天考韩语生字了，
还有六篇作文还没交，完蛋。

明天和老板讨论我的project，
没有挽回的余地，我就舍小鼠取大鼠。

出游记

2010-10-09T01:40:00.001+08:00

最近尝试了些新的东西。
新的邮箱，新的网络U盘，新的下载地点，新的歌和新的感觉。

终于，考试，课业告个小段落。
当晚，出游跟大伙儿去吃顿饭。
今天，以学姐的毕业礼物为由，大出游了一整天。

发现，我，贪心了
发现，我，不甘于现状
发现，原来我也能这样与人相处
发现，久违的欣慰
发现发现很多很多的新东西
也发现，为你我能。

明天，另个出游天
可为我的亲亲老鼠拒绝了早餐的出游，
因为下午的出游才是重点，呵呵
同学的open house,这次怎样都要到，感受他们的热情，不然没机会了（最后一年嘛）
学长学姐们的毕业典礼，为他们祝福，也为我们Biomedic做个聚头。

坦白说，我很期待，真的很期待
因为，明年的我就是现在的你们
也因为种种的原因让我想珍惜这些时光，好好感受在同学堆里的感觉，好好的活着！

感情局

2010-10-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

空窗期我都忘了什么叫做怦然心动，
是时候了，
要开启封印了吗，
遇见，有时只是个机会而已，
相处，才是那个所谓的缘分吧

呵，可我没有本去参与一场感情的赌局

前几天，他问我应该是不会找那种180的男生吧，
我想了一下说我只要一个能接受这样的我的人，
就这样而已

不下注只因我没有感情本钱
也许....我并不爱你吧

来日方长
到时间才揭纱吧

Like mouse

2010-09-16T13:21:00.000+08:00

Everyday mouse, mice, mouse and mice.

Can't suppress the urge to kill all the escaped rat in animal house. God damn it!

Everyday something will happen to our FYP mice, WHY?! GOD, TELL ME WHY?!
I need to redo my treatment group 3! Cause half of them died! REDO man......its REDO!
and...and my treatment group 1 & 2 still have 8 mice left! If they continue enter the netherworld, I AM GOING TO REDO MY FYP YA'KNOW!

Deep condolences

2010-09-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

Things will not happen as we wish i guess.
I can't accept death. I realized.
Things i treasure most may just withering away in any seconds.
I don't even want to think about it, i don't think i can handle the emotional tsunami at all.
I guess life will not be the same when you lose someone you loved.

I'm in such an awkward age right now, not a teenager, but not mature enough to handle my family.
How am i suppose to do in the next one year?
Should i fly somewhere else to build my own world?
Or i should just stay and enjoy the life along with my loved family...

Things will not get easy on me i guess.

老鼠乐

2010-08-16T16:39:00.000+08:00

最近吃很多纤维，也不懂为什么。
水果一直买，一直买，买了苹果又买番石榴，
然后又买橙，
菜呢，也一直买。
突然发现南瓜很好吃，到目前为止已经吃掉4个了，夸张吧。

昨天又不懂发什么神经，去煮了一大锅的燕麦加豆奶。
晚上手痒去按“美食大三通”看到Sri Lanka 的美食
突然很想吃肉，跑去cafe 打包 roti telur参着两种酱料吃。
一边看“美食大三通”一边吃我加蛋的 “手帕饼”
我终于明白为什么CT & Lion 会在看“美食大三通”的时候一直吃了，呵呵。

这几天一直在想马来新年时要不要跟秀回家
不过这次的期末假期我都不能回家，因为要跟我的老鼠玩，玩足20个星期。
希望菩萨保佑我能回家过新年，保佑保佑。

Proxy freak & lucky theory

2010-08-13T18:57:00.000+08:00

Recently i don't know what is the matter with me....
My laptop is officially spoiled, i mean the hard disk.....the second time! So i need to spend another RM180 for a brand new Samsung hard disk which tag with 2 years warranty *relieved*
RM50 for Windows 7 and another RM15 for cooling pad....

I'm in love with Window 7~! Its so cool!!! I love its graphic, effect, i mean all!!
Keep playing with it and ignoring my assignments for the whole day when i get my laptop back =D

On top of that, i found the proxy for accessing all the blocked site and it is SUPER FAST!
However, we still need to login to our USpot aka U SEPIT >.<
I have tried to track back to our USpot's own proxy ID by using tracert but its still the same proxy (172.16.110.33 port 80) but i think when they upgrade the USpot last month which last for 3 weeks they had added router between the user (thats mean us) and USpot, so the proxy i mentioned before is not more usable to access internet without login to USpot.....

Today, when i was in Mid Valley, i realised that my aging Nokia 2600's speaker is malfunctioning, i can hear you but you can't hear me....
Oh my god.....that means i need to buy a new one for real now.....or i just need to throw it on the floor and let it get some "reverse" damage then it will back to normal again.

There it goes again, the trip.
This time is my graduation trip. I'm so sorry, i'm not rich enough to travel overboard unless i definitely will spend below RM1000 for the whole trip include flight ticket, accommodation, this and that.
So, i plan to opt for island trip, yay! Redang! Kapas! Anywhere as long as i can snorkeling for whole day!
Next year January, i hope this trip will be a success =)

Dear sisters, I am officially telling all of you.
This time, I will grow my hair for SURE!
You will see me in looooong hair during my graduation ceremony!
Don't say i will give up in the middle anymore kay? hahhaa.....

I know a lot had happened to you (plural form), between you and between us, maybe i seems to give up but i'm not a quitter on our ship =) Love you all~

Uspot is back

2010-08-05T15:29:00.003+08:00

I've been searching back door for uspot and i'm come across some UPM student complained bout this USpot.

One of them said USpot is called U SEPIT at their hostel, haahha....cause its only give you 40 hours limit per week and they are not allowed to online after 1am.

Wow, i seriously don't know they can't online after 1 though....and this is sux.....

Finally, after so many weeks we wait till our neck become longer and longer, USpot finally come.

Some of my coursemates and juniors can't bear the "NO USPOT-NO INTERNET-NO LIFE" syndrome and opt for broadband.

I keep resist my urge to surf for 25 days! 25 days! It's my new record! Congratz me pls....

I normally wouldn't online during my semester break cause i will be WORK work work like hell....

Broadband, i definitely will go for Celcom Student package with the speed limit is 389kbps and volume limit is 5Gb.

Ya, i know the speed is damn slow but at K17, this is the speed you will get no matter what high tech modem you use.

But hey, luckily U SEPIT is back!

I still can use ultrasurf or freegate for some website that kena sepit or blocked, wahahaha!

Abuse act

2010-07-26T15:33:00.000+08:00

My dearest Bob said i am abusing my laptop.
The "G" on my keypad need to be stick on it with sellotape, my touchpad's left and right button become mutton....

I'm not abusing it.
I'm just typing msn......chit chat in the forum....download stuff....thats all.....

But apparently, my little blackie keep complaining bout my abuse act.
Hard disk spoilt....
Now...it started to rebel! Keep restart itself until it feel "song".
According to professional, its either my hard disk or my mother board got problem....

Then, Bob and Kak Fizah said it again. "You are abusing your laptop." Booo......

USpot hater

2010-07-25T15:35:00.001+08:00

Why only Blok B don't have internet?!
why the hell i get some news that the people responsible of this will come over to "see" our condition in DECEMBER?!?!?!?!?! WTF!!

Broadband broadband......my money not as broad as i wish......

Celcom VS Maxis......

I've been living like ancient cave Homo sapiens...

No Facebook, No anime, No manga, No novel, nothing bout finding my FYP......

Im not sure i should wait it to resume its connection or i just fly to The Mines and buy the broadband.....

Mr. M

2010-07-10T17:03:00.000+08:00

I am so sad.
cause i've been rejected by Mr. M........
I am so depressed.
cause Mr. M is leaving me away.....and getting further away.....
I need to buy a brand new handphone *cough* sorry, no iphone 4 cause Mr. M is not by my side.....
I need to pay my debt to my hostel and this and that....
I sincerely hope Mr. M will come back to me ASAP cause i don't want to be a dead meat ASAP.....

消化不良

2010-06-28T15:34:00.000+08:00

坦白说，对我的supervisor，我除了感激还是感激。
最后一天，她给了我很诚恳的忠告。
她说，我缺乏自信，可是对自己喜欢的事很积极。
她也说，我对我的未来没什么大期望，没什么抱负。

她对我说，她一路走来的心声，从毕业出来只做个千二块的薪水而且又不related他的course的工，
半工半读去读master,一边做工一边做自己master的research，到后来被召去应征这份工的两个月空窗期里，把以前degree到所有的东西重新读过，充分的准备，不让自己之前的努力白费。到得到这份工，必须从沙捞越来到吉隆坡，在没有任何住宿和交通的情况下，住在IMR对面的廉价酒店。。。

她一边说眼眶有时还泛着泪光，我看得出她的“苦尽甘来”的感触，看得出她想告诉我的是什么。

每个人都说“机会在你眼前，就要狠狠的抓住它”，可是我自知我从来都不敢去抓住这些机会，还质疑它的可靠性。

这次，我了解到。
我想深造，其实是抱着逃避的心态，因为对外界的不肯定，也对自己不肯定。
我发现，其实我想守株待兔。
其实我一直都不敢踏出我的comfort zone。

一年后，我能找到要的吗？
我不知道，我只知道我现在还不能完全消化那天复杂的感觉。
那天，在毫无预计的情况下，我们结束了这话题，我也完全来不及把我的话告诉她，只是匆匆忙忙的又跑过去和她合照留念，然后我们就这样的，结束了我们的实习。
直到 Zul 要回宿舍的那时刻，我才发现，我们结束了我们的实习，也许不再见面了，突然无法消化这感觉，我只能与她约在下次回来找我们的supervisor和另个朋友，希望我们能再续这段友谊。

我想，我变了。我真的变了。

No title

2010-06-22T21:53:00.000+08:00

Too many things happened recently.

Read a new manga "Gekka No Kimi" which is loosely based on Tale of Genji, like it!

UKiss came Malaysia, and yes....Dayana get the chance to hug one of them and a lot of "to-be-continue" stuff happened between them, kind of envious but i can't bear to burn my RM120 for the fanmeeting ticket >_>
and she talking bout diet as her BMI is 20....kind of fed up with her "obsession", you look great as you are now okay?! Whatever. Its your life.

Went to korean cuisine at Jang sok chun aka 장수촌 or 长寿村 at Ampa ng just now for my BBQ dinner.
Wanted to try tteokbogi aka 炒年糕 but too full. Sigh...tomorrow need to puasa dy....
Drink a bit Soju aka 烧酒 (Attention: kids are not allowed) and realized i can blush!
Well, i've been not sleeping well for few days, hope this alcohol drink will do the job.

Changed to Bacteriology department this week, stay in mycobacterium lab for 2 days.
See all the pus, sputum, CSF, pleural fluid, i hardly believe i can still have my meal till now...urgh....
Learnt, or i should say "observe" Real time PCR, conventional PCR, preparation of agarose gel, run electrophoresis and DNA extraction from clinical specimen.

Drank my 1st Choya Umeshu aka 梅酒 when i work at Low Yat.

IT IS DAMN DELICIOUS!

I shall buy the big bottle when i get my money! Woohoo!
Get to know my senior Jun Zheng better (Attention: 此君政非彼君政) through out the work as he ran away and left me behind when i was caught by security guard >_>
Still, he is a friendly person, erm...innocent maybe? hahha....i don't know, you tell me.

and.....
Siew....i love you. I am sincerely loving you. Thankyou for all you've done to me, i am touched.

I love you =)

Blue han-gul

2010-06-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

The only thing i am disappointed with is my korean.
I have been thinking since i saw my korean result. "Is this my level?" "Is this it?!" "F**k!"
I have no idea what is going on......
Am i not hardworking enough? i think so...........................
Am i too ignorant bout my level? too carried away? i think so..........................
I don't know. I don't know.
I am f**king sad, honestly.
Despite of my fanatic bout korean songs, this and that, this is what i got.
May be i am just now serious bout this, may be i didn't put enough effort, may be.....
I'm not even close to sad or moody when i failed other subject, why.....why this subject...??
Tried not to think so much....but my heart is aching.........damn sad, damn moody.

Mycotoxin in rice?!

2010-06-09T19:44:00.001+08:00

Formally informed that mycotoxin also present in rice.
Today i am having a bengkel from Stable Arm sdn bhd, i think it is a distributor company cause a person from LCTech (base at Germany) come and show us the machine.Uhum, sorry, there is no any yan dau blue eyes ang moh, just a malaysian LOL

First. GPC aka Gel Permeation Chromatography.
The thing i understand is this thing is the latest alternative for SPE aka Solid phase extraction, which is automated and lots more advantages lah...

Second. AcceClean....something like SPE but automated & capable of analyse more sample.

Third. AflaREAD & OtaREAD ELISA kits which are used to detect mycotoxin.
The AflaREAD kit detect alfa-toxin and the OtaREAd kit detect ochratoxin.
hm.................

Afla = alfa & Ota = Ochra

Ota = Otak-otak?!

cold............................................

The presentation bout the mycotoxin makes me wonder (like Maroon 5)

looks exactly like lecture note. WTF....

Looks like mycotoxin also has it golden rules : got fungi doesn't mean got mycotoxin, no fungi doesn't mean no mycotoxin, we don't know why fungi produce this bloody hell mycotoxin and we don't know when they produce them also. 了吗？

Actually it is his ring that occupied my mind.

Well, i don't know how to differentiate between engagement ring and marriage ring so i just assume it is a marriage ring then. hm...maybe i should investigate the differences between both ring.

It is so dazzling even though it look as it have been used for quite some time.

The ring is so shining like saying :"Hey, im married!" and i was so damn sleepy till i don't even care whatever the person yapping about and keep looking at the ring.

Well, i can tell that the guy is really proud and confident with the mycotoxin ELISA kit as he been doing mycotoxin before this, hope one day i will have something which i am proud to talk about, like what he was doing just now. Peace.

Mycotoxin present in rice, dates, dried chili, peanut, peanut butter, corn and lots more stuff.

I think he had inspire the researchers at the venue to do something bout analyse mycotoxin level in rice as we analyse it in animal food but never did it on our main food - rice.

He done a really good job today, thanks him, StableArm and IMR for this exposure LOL

Dr Nurul from the PAH analysis project i followed few weeks ago asked me :"Did you get what you want here?" as she asking us when we finish our internship there.

Without hesitation, i answered :"Yes."

She said :"Thats good."

Sincerely, i get more than i expected over here. Total exposure to research field.

Furthermore, strengthen my determination to further study =)

and i am kind of addicted to their library, lots of books! I mean the books i am willing to read! God knows i never sit down properly to read something except about gossip. LOL

Till now, i still think i'm been blessed all this while. Thank you =)

Shojo manga fever

2010-06-06T11:45:00.001+08:00

Recently read too much manga, all bout Shojo / romance.
Except for the Bleach.

Sometimes, i feel a bit awkward, or rather i should say "emo" bout the ending of those romance stories.
I've been thinking bout this for a while.
Okay. First, the growing affection between the boy and the girl.
Then, confession.
After that, conflict or obstacles you may say.
Then, end with marriage or something else.

I'm not saying that i don't want a happy ending (who don't want a happy ending lar?!)
but the thing keeps bothering my mind is : "What happened after that?"

Okay, maybe a simple normal life for the couple, just simple happiness.
Or, something slash in and they break apart.
Then? I don't get it. What will happened next...........the cycle comes again?
I don't understand.

I admit that i like to have an eternal love like what have been illustrated in Twilight Saga series, but still...i still thinking....what's next?

Maybe this is beyond my comprehension, but my mind keep puzzled by this.
Or it is just simply because i desire something different, different than the "normal cycle".

Malaysia's thought bout beep

2010-05-31T19:11:00.000+08:00

Yeap. I fall sick again.
Flu. AGAIN.
I hate this part, nah, not going to sing like pussycat dolls. Sore throat. Can't be a karaoke star in my room now.

Read a book called "Symposium on human sexuality", published in 1980, and YES. Made in Malaysia.
Do you believe it? they done all these research before 1980!
Truly S.H.O.C.K. =.=||
Thanks to this "book", i know lots of stuff. Explain a lot of sexual myths. However, the homosexual part is not well studied. Maybe its Malaysia after all.
All the research are done by Malaysian, i can see some professors' name and some universities' name.

Another book is something bout the spinal injury and sexuality, which written in Mandarin.
And yes.
Before this book, im sincerely, truly, honestly believe that people who suffer spinal injury & complete / incomplete paralyzed are incapable of having sexual intercourse, or rather i should say they reach the "Nirvana" stage. No desire, no, nothing.
Obviously i was wrong. Totally wrong. From the beginning till the end =.=||

My lesson of the day : Human is a miracle.

P.S why the librarian give me this kind of face? i'm not doing any crime okay?! Duh...

Dosai, dhosai, tosai, thosai, dvashi?

2010-05-28T10:30:00.000+08:00

Yeap. Had my oily dosai at the mamak restaurant near IMR.
It is really big till i can last for 7 hours, not too sour but delicious! I still prefer it to be not so oily though....

And, i've been trying to resume my k-pop dance life back.
Slack off for 6 months *DENG* and lost my chance to join Dayana's SHINee dance crew and they WON!!!
THEY ARE GOING TO KOREA!!! ARGH!! THEY ARE GOING TO ATTEND MUSIC BANK! ARGH!
moreover, the Koh wen qiang is having his industrial training in KOREA!! KOREA! YOU KNOW?!
I am damn envious.......................................................................=((((((((((((((((((((((((

Well, resume my dance life is because i'm fxxking bored with my current life.
Well, its not a life at all. It a piggy life.
Eat, sleep, online, read novel, browse here browse there, jalan-jalan, watch anime.
And Yes, you are right. I'm doing all these during my "work time" and after my "work time".
So, can you understand my frust now?

Luckily, today is my dance day.
Tomorrow is my reunion with my lovely Huiying sister =) along with Kangning, hehehe....
Anticipating..... =D

言。情。

2010-05-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

看着最新的死神 Bleach 第271集，到最后无法忍耐到下个礼拜才出的下一集
几乎是立即，马上，去下载它的漫画，一直看到最新一章。
一个字。情。

Ulquiorra 所说的“心”，Ichigo 对Orihime 的“保护”
到 Tosen 对心爱的人的“正义”，还有那只熊队长对 Tosen 的“谅解”----都是情
感触太多，发现死神已经要 show down了，有点感慨
因为私低下，我是希望Ulquiorra 与Orihime之间有个真正的结局，没法子了，只好看看FanFiction来解瘾。

有时发现自己对感情上还是个小孩子，
希望我喜欢的人不讨厌我，希望能在有限的朋友圈里找到几个能交心的人
也许我太幼稚了，也许我奢求太多，也许他并不是我以为的那么不讨厌我，
或许我真的是涉世不深，看得不多，
或许我还是学不乖，性子太冲动，太自以为是，
或许，是时候该转身退后
或许。。。一切都是我的错。

第二轮就failed了

2010-05-13T20:23:00.004+08:00

今天 Super 问我们这几天的收获，第一轮我险胜，第二轮就刷下来了。。。。唉。。。

虽然我很懒，不读书，不上进，不喜欢用脑，可是我的头脑还是年轻的okay?
可是太久没有用了，还是有点老化。
昨天没有带纸笔的情况下，死命记下三个 research proposal的所有内容，呼。。。
发现我的 “死命记就记得到” 还是没退步，哈！

Super 问起来，我才发现我真的很懒
所有的 extraction process 到底要 extract 的是什么我都不知道，
我只知道要验跟测量PAH (Polycyclic Aromatic Hydrocarbon)而已，
每个步骤的目的和 end product 是什么也不知道，
我才想到：“哎呀！她 expect 我们很像上次那个“李冷汗”酱 expect 我们酱什么都要知道啊啊啊啊！！”
我还以为我还保有上次的那种态度，原来我是太懒，连我学的都懒掉了。。。

明天她就要我们交上个星期的报告了，我之前还跟我隔壁讲说，我这个人很懒啦，她最好给我个 time limit 然后我才会“发奋图强”去做功课～
结果，她今天就叫我们明天交，我实在是没话讲了。。。自己拿石头砸自己的脚。。。

不过说真的，在这个部门学的都不是我其他同学所学的 routine work，我学到的是怎样去做一个研究，知道的都是比较广的范围。
比起其他同学，或许我没有 hands on 去 run test or analysis，可是我看到的，他们教我的，我都了。

今天 Super 谈起她第一次来 IMR 做工看到的 quote.

"There are, in effect, two things, to know and to believe one knows;

to know is science;

to believe one knows is ignorance."

- Hippocrates

坦白说，我也看到这篇匾额在 EHRC　那里，当时的确有打了一棒，也许我太懒了，忽略了身为研究人员的认知，真的很希望这次的实习能让我“焕然一新”，呵呵。。。

Blue Saturday

2010-05-08T16:32:00.000+08:00

Its Saturday, i am freaking tired even i slept for over 12 hours.
Gosh, i hate this kind of life, nothing to learn, nothing to do and nothing to anticipate for......

Realize that i wouldn't see my senior buddy, Tiffany around so frequent anymore as they are graduating soon.
Somehow i feel paiseh to her cause i am not a good junior for her.....not filial to her....
For all these years i don't think we are really that close, i also don't know why. But luckily, this semester we are getting closer (i think?).

I've been wasting all my time on stupid stuff i guess, I'm not study hard enough, I'm not playing hard enough too.
Kind of regret and feeling blue out of nothing.....

Download so many anime and read so many novel in 5 days.
Everyday I'm sitting in the office doing nothing, luckily i have my laptop with me, at least i can read some novel, listen to music~
BUT I STILL WANT TO LEARN SOMETHING!!!!
CAN YOU FEEL MY AGONY?!?!?!!!

Well, it is a blue Saturday.

IMR: Thoughts bout UKM & UPM Biomedics

2010-05-04T19:08:00.004+08:00

IMR = Institute of Medical Research.

Well, it is a historical place coz it born 1900. Believe it? its 100+ years old!

I've been allocate to EHRC (Environmental Health Research Centre).

Seriously, i hope i can do some "routine work" which is dealing with all the biological sample, this and that.

But, for this time. Nope. I will do more coursework like prepare research proposal, find journal and observe other researchers' project.

Met a UKM Biomedics. Honestly, i think their course and subjects are way better than us apart of some subjects are using BM.

Their courses are more pack, more intensive and MORE PUSHING.

I mean, its not like UPM is not pushing at us, it is just not enough.

See, each semester they got 7 subjects (we maximum got 6?) , lab work are real lab work (not like us, 2pm to 5pm, 4pm we already run off....), more field trip, more exposure.

Biostat, our killer. They took it for 2 semester - Biostat & Biostat Advance. They have done questionnaire, collect data then analyse them.

Us? no assignment. No proper lab tutoring.

We have no more Teras subject starting our final year, but they still have teras subject every semester.

The one i really envious of is one course ( i forgot the name) includes 2 module : Toxicology & Histopatholoy.

For the Toxico, they have it for 6 weeks. every day they got lab, every day they got new assignment. From handling animals, restrain, force feeding, injection, take blood sample to sacrifice the animals and take samples.

They learn all bout the equipments in lab, every component within them during their 1st sem.

Seriously, i have nothing to say bout us. I have nothing to tell.

For their kolej activities. Trust me, for the sake of merit, we will join everything, this is what i thought. However, after i heard what she said. i knew their activities are WAY MORE MEANINGFUL than us.

Compared to me, i am damn carefree.

The reasons i can think about our UPM situation are:

1. We have our 1st test, 2nd test and final exam.

Basically, we are having exam every weeks if the exam schedule is "unlucky" for us.

When you are having examsssss like that, how you can join activities either academic purpose or kolej activities with a peace of mind?

2. We are just too exam-orientated.

Everything we study, we think bout our exams, not bout gaining new knowledge.

With this kind of mind set, we can't go far.

Peer pressure bout marks, all bout marks, what bout the knowledge? I don't think people will give a shit bout it when everyone around you talk about marks marks and MARKS.

3. Marking system.

Why we so easy to get an A for a subject? I think all my coursemate are having pretty good GPA/ CGPA, but is that our real marks?

I am so hoping that our marking system will be very strict right from the start. Then we will know our real level, our real marks.

When things are going easy for me, i will take advantage of it.

and I don't want to pour all my blood and sweat out for an A that anyone can get it with just a little more effort.

and shit.

i knew i've been hibernating for too long. I taste the fruit. and it is no U-turn or Rewind.

damn it.

K, enough for the lament.

EHRC. Yeap. This week maybe is a really EMPTY week.

But, i am looking forward for the next week: Project bout seafood contamination.

No hands-on but really hoping that i will learn something that i won't be able to learn at other place.

Wish me luck!

心系于喜

2010-04-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

看到姝频这么幸福，我真的很开心。

她真的很快乐，很甜蜜。

很喜欢。好像看到一件我很喜欢的东西酱。

很久了，没有真正的笑。

这几天，托了秀和顺杨的福，我过得很快乐。真的，太开心了。

若有一天他们真的在一起或结婚，我是第一个狂笑的人。哈哈哈。。。

刚刚看到姝频的合照，知道她很快乐，我很欣慰。

愿他们长长久久，嘻！

Bleach anime last filler!

2010-04-23T00:47:00.003+08:00

Bleach currently reach 267 episodes. Starting from episode 266, they back on their track.

I count. There were around 8 months Bleach been giving us filler episode.
All are craps. Cause Bleach is about action. Fighting scene.

Now, the one i waited for 1 years will going on action in the upcoming episode 268 "Orihime's dillema".
It all started when i know there is a lot of fanfiction on Ulquiorra & Orihime.
I get to know that eventually Ulquiorra turned to ash and reach for Orihime. I don't believe it. Even after i purposely went and find the manga that show the scene.
Frankly, im been avoiding to admit that he is dead ( i mean in the manga). Keep finding the peace from all the story bout the mutual feeling between both of them and life after he turn to ash or their encounter in total different situation.

Finally, the time is come. He will turn to ash for sure.
Luckily, the producer team of the anime gives us slight of hope. Show us some jealousy reaction of Ulquiorra and the feeling of Orihime towards him.

They asked the writer. Is Ulquiorra dead? He didn't answer it.
Personally, i hope they will end up together and away from the conflict.

JJ Lin's "无法克制" remind me of the feeling of him towards her. 苹果香的肌肤....温柔弧度...

I'm been emo recently and i don't know why. I guess life is too much 遗憾 for me.

Masic & Masamixes K-bootie Vol 3

2010-04-18T13:59:00.003+08:00

Secret's new song "Magic" keep singing the same phrase.

MASIC

Which is Magic music, hahhahaha....

initially people around K-pop world like "WHAT?! are they singing the wrong sentence?!" "Wow, korean's english pronunciation is really bad...."

Then they tell us that MASIC is nothing wrong at all cause its magic music, ahhaha...

really feel ORZ of their creativity >.<

ANother MASIC is MasaMixes! yup! The K-bootie Vol. 3 is out!!!
WOOHOO!!! Still downloading...sorry for uspot's slowness.... =.=
I never thought BigBang's Lollipop + Lady Gaga's Telephone will be this sync!
cause i never give a damn bout the Lollipop CF pun....
except for the Lollipop they did with 2NE1 la...

Here you are!

MASAMIXES K-BOOTIE VOL 3 (mediafire link)

2 MV
1) Sorry, Smells like Easy Ding Dong (UKiss, SHINee, Super Junior & Nirvana)
2) Lolliphone 2 (Big Bang vs Lady Gaga)

Hanakaseru Seishonen 花咲ける青少年

2010-04-08T23:11:00.006+08:00

It is a pure romance anime & of course with some adventure.

I wanted to try some new genre of anime so i pick this anime. Plus, the boys are damn cute & handsome, hahahah....

The story is around a girl named Kajika, she play the marriage game with her father to have her own life or she will need to fulfill her destiny. 3 guys been selected by her father but the boys are not awaring anything of this. As the story goes on, they develop friendship and love as well. However, as my expectation, she end up with the boy - Li Ren, a leader of Huang empire, 20 and Singaporean who is not even in the husband candidate list. LOL

Kajika destiny? All about her birth, or more precisely, her father's birth related to the "Raginei" country.

The boys are the eye-candy for me =))))) but they are not as handsome as those in my upcoming romance anime list.

but, the story line is not too bad.

It is a fresh air among my 热血 anime.

The funny thing in this anime is they talk about Malaysia, Singapore and the "Raginei" country actually is our Brunei.....

the most funny thing is the name of the "King of Modernization" of the country is called MAHATHI. You get it? MAHATHI........

Ah, guess which one of the boy in the pic above is the Li Ren??? hahhaah....hint: he is a chinese.

DCE & K-fever

2010-04-07T17:08:00.004+08:00

Another thing, DCE.
Tomorrow is my DCE final exam, and i dun understand why people around me are stressed over this.
Maybe i'm too slack off and away from the stress too long and become numb for everything happened around me.

AND my korean is going to level 3, at least that is what i hope.
Frankly, im hurt by the fact that dr kim is giving us an easier final exam paper to ensure all of us will going to level 3.
It hurts my feeling somehow.
I want to know what is my level after 2 semester of study and liking Korean language.
On the other hand, actually i'm not putting enough effort for this new hobby...that's why my korean is still s**k like a KInDERGARDEN.

Weather is getting hotter day by day.
And i've got my FYP title =)
doing something on pharmacology field, cancer and stuff.
ITS GOING TO BE A GOOD GOOD YEAR AHEAD, GOD BLESS ME =)

I just informed that one of my senior is dating with the 1st year O.O
and i just know that Mr. K couple with Miss Mustika Ratu before, and due to the shyness of Mr. K & both of them were not really ready for it, they broke up somehow.
Hmm....actually i'm doubt of the fact that Mr. K's shyness when it comes to relationship. Well, it is just out of my expectation as he is such a ..............dramatic? person, ahahah....sorry ya Mr.K XD

Called my mother =)
Condition of going back home for one week? COOK DINNER EVERY NIGHT.
I guess i'm going back to my secondary school time again as i was the one cook every meal everyday.

Chiaosu.

Pandora Hearts 潘多拉之心 & Pandora Hearts Original Soundtracks

2010-04-06T01:28:00.003+08:00

I just finished this anime. Spent 1 day to finish the whole series.

Frankly, the front part did not amazed me. But, my spec did pecah after that. LOL

It explains the time when he - Oz Bezarius turned 15 and having his adult ceremony. At the time he touch the stopped clock to give his vow, the clock start to tik tok. He dragged into abyss and become the illegal contractor with B-rabbit (Bloody rabbit) which take a human young girl form to break out from the abyss.

Well, this is a bit too simple to put a word on the situation he experienced down there and up there - in the real world.

Story goes by as Alice, the B-rabbit searching for her scattered memories. All the characters of this anime is surrounding the "Tragedy of Sablier". Sabrie, a town/ city dragged down into Abyss 100 years ago.

Oz, Alice & Gilbert. The 3 main actor on the stage of Sabrie town.

The only thing i truly like this anime is the soundtrack and the growing of the mysteries behind what happened at Sabrie 100 years ago. They are damn echoing. Fit the story so right and speaks the emotion of it.

My favourite of all. Pandora Hearts & Bloody rabbit. The most echoing melodies of all.

You may not feel the same way as i am when you listen to the soundtracks but wait until you watch the anime and feel the music, you will know what i mean.

The ending of the Pandora Hearts leaves so much mysteries behind.
What is the sin of Oz?
Who is Oz actually? The Jack Bezarius?
Who is Alice?
Who is the Will of Abyss?
What happened 100 years ago?

I am expecting the new season of this anime cause the ending is not enough for me.
The manga is still on-going (currently till 47 chapter), i will definitely pursue this Pandora Hearts till the last of the mysteries revealed.

Re-watch this series? definitely =)
It gives the dark black chill of thrill to me. Can't wait the sunlight to break through the Pandora Hearts.

Thanks to this, i managed to download the whole OST 1 & 2 of Pandora Hearts.
Pandora Hearts Original Soundtracks 1
Pandora Hearts Original Soundtracks 2 Part 1
Pandora Hearts Original Soundtracks 2 Part 2

장래희망

2010-04-02T17:57:00.003+08:00

This is my second korean essay assignment. Even though its a bit too late, but I MADE IT TO LEVEL 2, YAY!!

장래희망 means future wish or in another word, your future hope.

Ta da!! Here it is!

"제 장래희망은 복잡이에요.
저는 많은 돈을 하고 싶어요.
운전도 배울 거에요.
그런다음, 저는 희망 좋은 직업을 얻을 수 있어요.
그래서, 앞으로에 저는 크는 집을 살 수 있어요.
저는 자동차도 살 겠어요.
저는 희망 제 가족이 잘할 거에요.
그때, 저와가족 함께 세계 여행하고싶어요.
장래에 저는 고향에 살고싶어요.
제 부모님 도 고향에 오고 싶어요.
저는 음악을 좋아해서 가수를 되고 싶어요.
그러나 이계획을 필요없어, 왜냐면 제가족은 중요이에요."

I know it sounds a bit off but hahahha...we need make it to at least 10 sentences, so i put a little bit fiction inside my future hope.

Actually, i've been thinking about taking the TOPIK test (Test of Proficiency in Korean) after graduate. However, even if i get the official cert from UPM after get my Level 3 done, i am not even close to the kindergarden korean language's stardard.

KINDERGARDEN..... pfff.....can you imagine that? not even close.

I came across some info from a person i knew from twitter, she is a NTU student and completed Level 5 of TOPIK test in 1 year (if im not mistaken).

Well, she is amazing cause i bet she can talk like native korean now and im still a kindergarden >.<

There is another test which is soley testing your speaking and listening skills and you still get your TOPIK cert. I thought it could be a good idea but eventually i found that it is damn difficult.

You see, the native korean speaks like native chinese, you can get lots of slang, self-made words and all sorts stuff.

I tried to listen to our beloved Dr Kim and failed. The way he speak sounds like ALIEN to me!!!

I'm sure this is one hell long journey.

Fancy tool

2010-03-18T21:48:00.007+08:00

I want a good pair of eyes, smart brain and a gut to manipulate people like what Jane did in "The Mentalist".

I want to conduct those experiments like what Walter did in "Fringe" to explore the wonder of science...

I want to have the bright, bold and carefree personality like Luffy in "One Piece".

Most importantly, i want to have a try on those fancy tool in CSI, like the LCD screen table and bla bla bla... which i thought they are still haven't popularized in US, but yet i saw them in CSI New York...gosh, my hands are itchy now, when i will get my hands on these little sweet stuffs? 5 years later? OH NO, i will die of running out of patience later....

Oh, Peter

2010-03-12T01:20:00.005+08:00

First time ever, i feel the rush from watching horror / thriller movie...

Fringe is certainly blowing off my mind with questions, answers and MORE questions + mystery.

Sometimes, i just don't get it. Why would people love to watch horror movie? They scare the hell out of me for sure, even Supernatural will do the job.

BUT, i did get the so-called "excitement" from Fringe.

I guess this is what those horror-movie lovers are going for, right? the thrill.

and...............they almost kissed!!
Peter is from another universe, so the Peter from this universe is dead and the dorky Walter is pulling this Peter from there loh...? Wow, this is what human are able to do as nothing is impossible when comes with human. Freaking anticipating the next episode!

oh, little on the k-pop stuff.
Brian Joo is doing his single "In my head" originally from Jason Derulo. He is a bit cute, a bit lah....
2NE1's new MV "Try to follow me" is a bit too flashy for me, hmm...still good though.

Chiaosu.

A.N.JELL

2010-03-08T02:25:00.004+08:00

就在这个韩剧“原来是美男啊”/ “미남이 시네요"的烧快要褪的时候，竟然给我发现这个...

너 때문에 나의 심장을 두근두근어요, 이감정이 옳지 않아요...

他长发真的很帅，他们真的是太美了。。养眼，哈哈哈！他应该演古装片的，而且是中国像什么天外飞仙那种。

如果这部韩剧还有第二季，我就晕倒了....

During my Biostastistic Test 2....

2010-03-04T15:42:00.004+08:00

During my Biostatistic test 2.....wind blow....creepy.....cold.....
it made me feel im going to die this time....for real.....
im dying for this.....=S

I guess this is the end for my biostastistic.....so long, my "dearest subject"...

By the way, You're Beautiful 미남이 시네요 in my collection now!!!

After Inuyasha anime, im collecting Gintama now, hahhahha!
The Mentalist really blow off my mind. i like everyone in the series <3>The cocky Jane, the attractive boss Lisbon, the cool and cute Cho, the shy Risgby and the lovely Van Pelt, hehehe....

.::K-pop Box::.
Latest K-pop trend: Kara "Lupin" ; T-ara "너 때문에 미쳐"
New release K-pop MV: D-NA "동경소년" ; Beast "Shock"
My current fav: One Way "Magic"

Broken necklace

2010-03-01T00:53:00.003+08:00

It just putus like that. When i tried to adjust my pendant.

I think it's the right time, freed me from the shackles.

I'm terribly sick at this time, subconsciously doing the thing i loved to do for the whole time and doing them unconsciously.

Now, i'm back. The one with nothing on her neck and wrist.

I'm not going to find the new necklace nor pendant for now as i just taste the sweetness of freedom.

Until then, the broken necklace will be placed in my collection, till the next rule comes in.

How sad it is. Just when i realize i am imagining things. Things that shouldn't be real at all.

Sick worm attack!

2010-02-26T22:15:00.004+08:00

Officially sick after the enjoyable CNY --> Seoul Garden's korean buffet ---> Dr.Kim's korean cuisine at his house.

CNY = a lot of biscuit, home cooked food, drinks and bla bla bla;

Seoul Garden = barbecued chicken, ice-kacang (which end up quite awful due to the raw green bean, yucks...) and plenty of ice-cream + corn flakes;

Dr Kim's house = OMFG~! 10 KG of PORK, 3-LAYER PORK!!! Korean alcoholic beverage which are 참이슬 “真露烧酒” from Jinro company and 막걸리 (its like Malaysian's tapai)!

I have to admit that im drinking too much back then, getting a bit tipsy, hhahah...luckily didn't do anything stupid hahahah....
Personally, i prefer the 막걸리 than the 참이슬cause it is just too alcohol...19.5%....but Dr kim's wife offer to make cocktail with the 참이슬 using fruit or vege, but we turn down the offer as we can't fit anything more...

PS: huhu...missed the chance of tasting it...wuwu....deep down in my heart, i was screaming "Yes! Oh yes!" but....haih....never mind...sure got another chance afterward..im sure =)

No la, we can't even finish 3kg of the pork, too full with the seafood pancake, mashed potato pancake, homemade kimchi by Dr Kim's wife herself and plenty of delicious side dishes!

Now, with my herbal drink, trying to cool down the effect of all the barbecue meat and alcohol, im putting up a white flag. Sick worm, you're the winner...... = /

李健《傳奇》 - 王菲2010於中國央視春晚上演唱之歌曲

2010-02-23T21:39:00.014+08:00

下列是Youtube的link...

李健《傳奇》王菲2010複出演唱歌曲原版

王菲傳奇 2010央視春節聯歡晚會 HD

《傳奇》

只是因為在人群中多看了你一眼
再也沒能忘掉你容顏
夢想著偶然能有一天再相見
從此我開始孤單思念

想你時你在天邊　
想你時你在眼前
想你時你在腦海　
想你時你在心田

寧願相信我們前世有約
今生的愛情故事不會再改變
寧願用這一生等你發現
我一直在你身旁　
從未走遠

简单的歌词，简单的曲调。
传奇是指这一瞥的爱情故事吗

前几天看到一位老友的部落格，
她说她找到那个让她说"I see you"的人了，
真的很替她高兴，i mean有几个人能让你说这些话的。。。？
遇到了，时间对了，时机到了，就星光灿烂咚咚咚锵。

有人说搞什么Robert Patinson 这么出名？
我说因为他代表着Eternal love，对吧。

PS: 我想遇到那个能让我说shmily的人.....不过应该么这么快吧，呵呵

睡越

2010-02-22T02:18:00.005+08:00

岁月等于睡觉 + 越轨。

哪儿越轨了？
时间越轨了。

睡觉呢？
让时间流了。

那我在这干啥？
就没干嘛，没事找事呗。

老了吗？
对呀，老啦。
就是因为老了，才会酱想呀。

这啥话呀？！？
废话呵。

새해 복 많이 받으세요!

2010-02-11T10:19:00.002+08:00

新年快乐！
HAppy new year! WOOHOO!!!

going back to my hometown in 12 hours....
huhu....meet girlfriends and boyfriends and i will be away from my fanfic, my k-pop, my anime, my shojo manga, my Queen, my forum for 10 days =)

前天看了“大日子“，很温馨，很搞笑！
让我有家的感觉，真的是马来西亚的土产，哈哈！
很久没看这么又好笑又废又有意思的电影了，
也终于了了我唱歌的心愿，过过唱歌的瘾，
之前一直喉咙不舒服，有点担心以后不能开怀大唱，呵呵，
所以那天死拼命的唱唱唱唱，唱到不能唱为止，哈哈哈哈哈哈！

祝大家跟大家，新年快乐！万事如意！财源广进！风调雨顺！大吉大利！（嗯，我会吃很多柑的，呵呵。。）
来年见咯！

Lesson of the day : Zero tolerance to sexual harassment

2010-02-08T15:53:00.002+08:00

Definition of sexual harassment : as long as you feel uncomfortable.

Next time, i will take action and be bold. and kacha!!!!! GIVE YOU HELL!!

full stop.

My latihan industri

2010-02-04T10:58:00.003+08:00

My ideal choice is General Hospital Batu Pahat, and yet, because of some MOU "Memorandum of understanding" problem. Health department of Johor reject my application.

So, i moved to my next choice....Pantai Premier pathology lab, and other lab as well for example BP lab, Path lab, Clinical Path lab, Gribbles la this and that la, i even find some unknown company...eg: Pak Tani Lab??? omfg......

Damn frustrated....no mood, moody, bad mood.....

Plus, there is a vacancy at Hospital Putrajaya, but i have no transport at all....thinking bout rent a room at the green flat which is near to the hospital, but according to dayana, they usually seek for malay girl....E#$^^&&(*%#@!@(*

So, now, the Jaya Tekno or Jelaran Tekno company which suppose to located at my hometown - Batu Pahat, saying if i want train at their company, i need to stay at Kluang there, cause BP branch is nothing there but selling stuff i guess......

Now, i need transport, place to stay, money and this and that?!?!
1st, i dun wanna stay over other ppl house?!
2nd, i ain't f*ing rich girl who has a pretty car and pretty face and pretty money?!
3rd, i want to stay at my HOME!!!!!!!

SO, SHOULD I MAKE THE CALL OR NOT? i guess i have no choice at all since i don't want to watch my fellow coursemates' convo and im the only one not wearing the bloody hell graduation cloth (or cloak??)

Why life makes such a joke on me?!?!

姫神 Himekami

2010-02-01T01:18:00.003+08:00

Accidentally, i found this video on youtube. Ya, its youtube again LOL But this is really resonance-ing.

Rarely i found peace or calm at any place since i left that place. The place i used to love and sitting there, look at the scene outside the window and do nothing. Just nothing.

The reason i talk about this Japanese musical group is they are the one who making those everlasting song or i should say music or sound that will blow a breath into your mind and sink you with the sensation you want to feel.

Here you go. The one i love the most "" by 姫神 or Himekami from Sennen Kairou 千年迴廊(2000) album.

千年の祈り (The Prayer of Thousand Years) - 姬神 Himekami

1.59 Charity Show presented by MYHOTTEST2PM 30/1/2010

2010-01-28T15:04:00.004+08:00

Yeap, you got it right.

IT'S A CHARITY SHOW BY 2PM FANS!!

Well, as far as i know, there will be performances from ELF (Super Junior's fanclub), SS501 fanclub, SHAWOL (SHINee's fanclub) and more!!

All money collected will donate to.....erm...im not sure what is it this time, Haiti maybe?

I will be the camerawoman for SHAWOL's Jojo and Ring Ding Dong performance, yoohoo~
hehe....actually i just tag along dayana's group and join for the korean food, ㅋㅋㅋㅋ....

That is my event for tomorrow! Can't wait to see all the performance!

Malaysian fans fighting!! muaks <3!

Bioradiation 시험

2010-01-25T15:16:00.002+08:00

오늘의 시험 완료, 하지만 다음 시험에 어려운 시험입니다...

에, 심심해....

저는 졸려요.....잠을 자요....안녕....

Tweet Tweet!

2010-01-18T17:11:00.004+08:00

Yup. I'm officially addicted to twitter.

First, i start off with my me2day, which is a korean-self developed kind of twitter with a lot of feature like google map, upload photo, link, this and that. But..due to my very-not-so-fluent korean, im not really into it.

Actually i started Twitter way earlier than my me2day, hm....about one year ago, the time i start to get bored with facebook and try to approach my dance fever for CADC <3
Then, the twitpic loh.....

Now, i extend my hand to TweetDeck! im lovin' it! it can link to my facebook, twitpic and other stuff =)

And we got TwitLonger for those are long-winded.... hahhaha....
Last but not least, korean version of twitter! TwtKr!!! We can vote, google map and more! but still can't fully utilise it yet =(

Begin my journey to pursue Ouran High School Host Club manga, Bleach fanfiction esp Ulquiorra + Orihime!!! and other stuff too.
I wish i can recover totally from this mess, dun like the feeling of *gong gong* everyday.....
Aish, thats all, Ciaosu!

Vampire addiction 2

2010-01-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

Im officially addicted to Timbaland ft SoShy & Nelly Furtado "Morning After Dark".

I was laugh non-stop when the guy in the music video ask the girl say what she saw and SAY IT OUT LOUD. LOL exactly like Twilight!

I fall in love with SoShy's style in rapping, damn hot!!!

Another song which i can't reveal now due to some *uh hum* technical issue....also one of my favourite =)

Can't stop feeling the power and the beat from the song, if the "matter" turns out well, you guys can witness it's power in 3 weeks.

Well now, i need to go back to my Bleach fan fiction~ Ulquiorra & Orihime is the most tragic and sexy pairing ever!

What happened to Malaysia on Jan 2010?

2010-01-11T01:19:00.005+08:00

I was so outdated as soon as i found out the church been burned down as a row escalated over the use of the word "Allah" by non-Muslims.

My life in K17 is seriously need newspaper and some current issue updater for keeping me aware of what happen outside this little world. I think even there is some gun shooting outside of K17, i also have no idea at all....forgive me..im too lazy to read newspaper in library....

This issue been discussed over and over again in Facebook, Twitter and bla bla bla. Groups, pages and status....all over about this...

Im seriously liking my friend, uhhum...my old classmate - CheeShong's status bout this matter.

"if we are not allowed to use d Word, then we cant sing Johor state anthem, which start with "_ _ _ _ _ peliharakan Sultan"; then would it be some day in future we are expelled or "kena buang negeri" on the accusation of didn't give our loyal, respect and love to our dear Negeri Johor???"

Even my some friend who are used to "special gerakan"also have some words bout this...saying this matter isn't suppose to be interpreted like this....it is the matter of addressing your own God with any name you like and not restricted.

Yes, you are right. But, the cause and chain effect is the big deal now my friend. More and more attempts are coming. All over Malaysia. Selangor, Sarawak, Perak and Malacca. Whats next? Johor? Batu Pahat? &(**)&%@$!$#@

It's a f***ing shame of Malaysia that this incident show on the head news all over the world. People will just blurt out "Wah! YOU are MALAYSIAN ah! I heard your country got people burn down soooooooooooooooo many church because of some God addressing issue leh!" once i say im a Malaysian.

Saya harap saya boleh ambik satu telur busuk dan sumbat kat dalam mulut ko, tapi saya lagi suka kalau telur busuk ni boleh sumbat kat orang yang mengapi-apikan perkara ini. Biar pun api ni api hasut ke api petrol. Peace......

2010 New Year with SBS, KBS and MBS Gayo Daejoon music festival

2010-01-01T01:29:00.003+08:00

Busy with all the downloading...

1. 20091229 SBS Gayo Daejoon,

2. 20091230 KBS Gayo Daejoon and

3. 20091231 MBS Gayo Daejoon.

All new english album from Chris Brown to Westlife...damn happy with K17 internet connection!

No Blocking babey!!!

I can take anything i want! muahahahah!

Unexpected New Year Eve celebration with ji wei and juniors leave a deep impression to me.

Thanks guy for such happy and ridiculous celebration!! <3333

Think about starting my GIF picture manufacturing program.....hm...i need all the software and 200% focus!!!

Can't start my lovely GIF picture with T-ara "Bo Beep! Bo Beep!" due to my lack of "Orientasi ke arah kecekapan" which in my interpretation is equal to LAZY.......

Brand new year with Brand new resolution conduct by brand new Kai Leng....sounds...lazy huh??

hahah....love you all! my sister, my siew, my family and my coursemates!!

May Love and Luck will follow you all! muaks!

500mg Ciprofloxacin

2009-12-30T20:25:00.002+08:00

I feel sleepy all the time after i take the medicine for my throat infection.

More than one week...started yesterday i took antibiotic - the infamous 500mg Ciprofloxacin.

Its double dose than normal, i seriously need it now, thanks handsome!

So now, 1hour after my dinner aka oat + milo, i take my medicine and im plan to wash all my dirty laundry.

Hope i can hang on before i fell asleep at there....Wish me luck!

Mo-od

2009-12-22T23:36:00.006+08:00

20th December 2009.

My holiday job is quite a boring job, actually. Standing there waiting for you-know-who customers. Curse them when they drill the land of cloth and leave with a fart. It was devastating.

I like the girl who works beside me. She is funny and cute. I always thought her cheek is made of rice since she said she like rice a lot. She looks like a boss for me. I mean the way she talks. But that’s it.

The environment never changed, but I can feel the sense of restriction from their workers’ behavior. It feels like my neck is hold by hands, not tight but I still can feel the tension from them.

I still don’t know what’s going on during my 22th birthday, conclusion is no mood. Same wishes and same tone. Some are suspicious about the breakup of my non-existing romance, my hormone level, my illness and da da da…..

I think I hate them. I hate the lock on my neck, it makes me hard to breath. I hate the fact that I am so timid. I have no gut to burst out my emotions, and the fact that I am wrong trusted the person.

I keep rewind the scene in my mind, flashback to the day she tell me who I am, to the day he tried to do what he think is right to do, to the day they betray my trust, to the day which I also don’t know when it started, all sums to one word. Fear. It started to crumble.

I could not imagine what kind of life I am going to live under the fear. One day, I may erupt and kill it. Or one day, I will erupt and kill myself. Then I shall prepare myself with a gun loaded with bullet of craziness. Stop.

Missing post 1: holiday 09

2009-12-22T23:27:00.002+08:00

Farewell, My lovely UPM and my lovelyish K17.
Thanks for giving me such a splendid semester <3333>
Really looking forward my holiday! my real holiday ....huhu...

I think i become more and more mature liao...hm...
I gave my virginity to clubbing, dancing and failed my test XD
Thanks for taking care of me and not give me up, you guys are awesome!

Im seriously looking forward my new coming semester,
damn sure it going to be a luxurious, fantastic and elaaaaastic semester!

I wanted to say 미안합니다 face to face to you, you & you.......
sorry for my absent, my ignorance, my coldness, and my violence....
you guys are my one and only sisters.....and siew also....
love you all!!!!

Free from Exam virus!

2009-11-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

Yup. Officially free.

Yup. Sick with internet.....pls give me a new idea or new interest PLEASE....

Yup. im going to have my real holiday since i entered UPM.

No more full time job, No more part time job, just work as assistant in fair for 20 days ^^

i really looking forward my holiday now!

And i not regretting fall in love with K-pop and Korean =) lubbiu!

Slack off

2009-11-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

Im seriously slack off.

browse all the website, forum, youtube, movie, facebook, novel, this and that.

Now i know what is the feeling when you got unlimited online time, due to uspot maintenance.

Sorry for leading a life like this.

Im sincerely sorry....

Kim Tae Woo 김태우,金太佑 - T-virus

2009-11-05T20:04:00.004+08:00

The T-virus album is addicting!
Its on replay mode in my ttplayer!
his voice really killing me softly......
hm....sexy voice? yes.
Looking forward his full album <3

The album is composed of 6 tracks:

1. 하고 싶은 말 Part 2 / Something To Tell You Part 2
2. Faster (Feat. 유비) / Faster (Feat. Yu Bi)
3. 사랑비 / Love Rain
4. 내가 야! 하면 넌 예! (Duet With LYN) / I say ya! You say ye (Duet With LYN)
5. 점점점 (Feat. 앙리) / JumJumJum (Feat. Henry)
6. 기억과 추억 (Feat. 준형, 호영, 데니) / Memories and Rememberance (Feat. JunHyung, HoYoung, Danny)

Bump To These Fresh K-Pop Remixes!

2009-10-30T13:16:00.004+08:00

Bump To These Fresh K-Pop Remixes!

I just found a brand new remix!! argh!! im crazy over them!!
He made so many remix or mashup for current K-pop hit songs!
but the most i like is the SHINee - RING DING DONG mashup <333

THere are SHINee, 2pm, G-dragon, SNSD chocolate love CL, Sandara park, Clazziquai, 4 minutes, Big Bang, Kara and more!!

Here,

지드래곤 - 버터플라이 리믹스 (ft. 산다라, 진정) / G-Dragon - Butterfly Remix

Top 30 Hottest Hunk in Malaysia 23 Oct 2009

2009-10-29T14:41:00.003+08:00

Its Hunks time!

Let the pictures tell the tales.

Dayana with her bling-bling outfit + bling-bling eyelashes...

Me with the freshly bought top.
Top from Next shop, Hairstyle by Nana Lana.

Top 12 Hunks. Too bad only can see their back but they are hot!

This is our main purpose: support the opening dance by Urban Groove and the contestant no.29 (the boss of UG)

Its dayana's coupled fren, they are damn tall man....

Summary: I hope there is swimsuit session u know....haih...but really enjoy the show!

First Ladies Night at Euphoria, Ministry of Sound, Sunway pyramid

2009-10-29T14:12:00.006+08:00

Seriously forgot to update my night life here, haha...

eh hem! sorry, i dun have night life k, its just a trial before the real event which is the Top 30 Hottest Huks in Malaysia.

Why? coz the event was held at the same place, so....we decided to go to the Ladies Night and see the situation there and we wun look like NERD during the event loh, haha....

yeap, u got it right, its Chivas babe...

We left K17 as we nearly choked to death in the fog coz they do the fogging to the entire kolej, aih, its a disaster.....
Reach there way later than what we planned, after we shop at the next shop and eat McD.
We heading to the Euphoria.
Guess what? we are too early man.....no one there....no one dance...shyt..we are truly nerd la, ahhaha....
So, we go to Coco Banana, but....with all the smoke and the ladies night start at 11pm, we go back to Euphoria pula XD

Waiting.......waiting....then baru got ppl start to dance, all the fun just started and its time for Cinderellas to going home.....so we fetch Cinderellas back K17.
3 of us are so depressed as we just started to get fun, so, we head back to dance AGAIN!! muahaha!

3 little restless rats

Front view of Euphoria....

Through this "trip" as i witnessed some hentaiand weird thing, i've this conclusion : I prefer pub.

被不知啥人的幸福点到。。。。

2009-10-29T13:36:00.004+08:00

其实很懒惰用华语写的叻。。。呜呜。。

遊戲規則回答下列問題...
貼到自己的blog...
寫完後...
自己加一個問題然後傳給10個人... ( 我可以不要点人吗。。。)

可以點...
點過的人...
被你點到的人
你要去跟他說●我點到你了●...
寫完後去跟點到你的人說...●我寫完了●
不可以不寫喔...
不寫幸福就會跑掉喔.. （这个statement 很假咯。。）

不能再点回点过你或被点过的人哦。。。
我的大名：凯宁
我的生日：1987
誰傳給你的：《停开》
說出五個好朋友：不要写啦，很长叻。。
生日想要得到什麼禮物：什么都可以，只要不是很恶的东西就可以了
近期開心的是：ONLINE + dance!
近期壓力大的是：对考试越来越没压力了。。。
未來想做什麼：赚钱，钱钱钱！
有沒有喜歡的人：现在没有
同學會要回去找老師嗎：应该会吧
跟誰出去最幸福：家人 =）
如果你的兩個好友吵架了：不理他们
跟情人出去最想去哪：不知道
聖誕節要做啥：跳舞咯
最想跟誰過聖誕節：没有人
有沒有起床气：睡不够就会
有幾個兄弟姐妹：我是老大，二女一男
最喜歡的一首歌(女生的)：Lady Collection "peeking - melancholy talk"
最喜歡的一首歌(男生的)：组合算吗？ SHINee "RIng Ding Dong"
喜歡什麼顏色：以前是黑色，现在就不知道。。。
上廁所會不會先沖水：会！因为我怕中 Trichomonas vaginalis...
愛不愛我：你是谁？！！
喜歡男生還是女生：两个都爱
最想大聲說什麼：我爱你，因为没有人能让我这样对他说。

半夜敢不敢自己上廁所：哈哈！
上廁所會不會脫褲褲: 屁话！
誰很欠打："問上面那兩題問題的家伙" 来自廷凯《----这个我很同意。。。
現在很迷什麼：韩国流行歌曲！！
睡相很差：应该把。。。。
現在的時間：2pm
是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人：哈哈，没有啦，只是觉得很好笑而已
體重多少：过重
今天天氣：阴天
你懷孕了嗎：梅江快。。。
你若中樂透最想做什么：乱买乱花，乱吃乱用
大學生一定要玩的活動：搞band!
如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色你選：不用啦，这样就很美了
你相信爱情会永远吗：很难叻，对人没信心了
现在的你穿什么颜色的衣服：线条背心
放棄一個人會很難嗎：不难，只要想放就放
对欺骗你的人你有什么感想 : 会很气，过后直接不理会，反正气坏的是自己
最近一次看咸带是几时：哇！这个好！
最近看的一本書是：Cleo November issue
最讨厌的政客：没有讨厌，只是不喜欢
刚刚看的youtube video是： [HQ 102909] SHINee Ring Ding Dong @Shim Shim TaPa，嘻嘻。。

okay! the end!

Im in love with RIng Ding Dong again and again

2009-10-26T21:07:00.009+08:00

First listen to this song, my expression is like WHAT THE FXXX?

sound so ridiculous!

All the fantastic and elastic and butterfly?!!!

and the beat sounds like Indian song for me!

After i read all the comment in youtube bout their performance in the show, like "omg they so hwat!", "they look like vampire!", "toooooo hot!!!", i still dun get it.

After i back from the Hottest hunks' event, the uspot line is damn good that night,

so i download the HD MV of the SHINee RIng DIng DOng,

guess what?

im in love with them.

aw...they grow up too fast, become a man dy.....=(

but still love them.

Keep it up boy!

Watch the HD music video posted by SM Entertainment here.....
SHINee(샤이니)_RingDingDong(링딩동)_뮤직비디오(MusicVideo)

Clubbing kaki

2009-10-24T03:50:00.002+08:00

This is all i can say....clubbing kaki...

2 nights berturut-turut hit the same club with different ppl and different event,

1st time feel the pain of wearing high heel + dance + walking around + jumping?

After tonight's show, i keep wondering......

Night Life and Online.....

which one you would pick?

i will pick ONLINE......

Kajang Mooncake Festival 2009-10-10

2009-10-11T00:39:00.002+08:00

It is a successful performance,

with our new outfit,

audience and dancers are telling us that we are much more powerful than K17 got talent's audition.

With all other dancers there, i feel its a real dance world tonight at there....

you guys are sooo cool!

Doris and her group performance is so sharp and powerful and yet sexy...im loving it!

i really love tonight performance,

i've done my best,

give my 100 percent,

this project is over.....

aww...im gonna missed Girl Generation's "Tell me your wish"

with our official group name - "Fusion X"

what is our next project?

how bout 4 minutes "Muzik"?

Super junior M "Super Girl"?

or ......After School "Button" which performed in Chuseok Special few days ago?

Stay Tune!

SHINee Generation Genie teaser for K17 Got Talent

2009-10-01T02:20:00.003+08:00

Guys, we gonna join K17 Got Talent (1st & 2nd Oct) with the Genie / Tell me your wish dance by using SHINee Generation as our group name.

Hope u guys can come and support us!

LOL, now baru scared the shyt out of me....with the 75marks from her....

Clothes, accessories, this and that....panty hose....shorts....necklaces..bracelet...hair band..

This Friday is the infamous Dr.Sab physio test, thanks to her indecisional behaviour...we been flooded by joy and stress like irritated bowel syndrome.

Finally, after more than one month practise, adjustment, improvement, last minute changes, seriously hope we can POWER UP!!

Make it to the Final round baby!

Turn it on..turn it on~

thats right..come on!

I'm Genie for you boy....

Mooncake Festival at Summint Parade, BP 20090925

2009-09-26T22:02:00.006+08:00

Ya, i finish my work at 7pm, wandering around the BP mall for 1+ hour,
ate Mr.Magic sour cream and onion flavor French fries and a Papa Roti.
Attention: its not the "papa" who u know LOL

Then head to Summit Parade for the mooncake festival,
which in Chinese is 中元园游会.

Look at the crowd!

Some of the AJK give keropok and my favourite "Teddy bear chocolate cookies"!

Surprisingly, met with my relatives there, they entered the Mooncake Decoration Contest.

1st gp : my 2nd aunt

2nd gp: My married cousin

3rd gp: My 3rd aunt

Something i must say about BP forks is they will never lose their enthusiasm for all the Chinese traditional event, even though the event might not that big scale, but can feel the joy & merry of our M0oncake festival!

stall ove here n there...

This is what we play during Mooncake festival called 猜灯谜, some are really tough man....

Mum is looking at others' self-made mooncake =)

Okay, the 8th gp, self-made mooncake & this gp caught my sight....
gp no.9~ colorful mooncake, looks delicious....

10th gp: the calligraphy theme is damn nice, really love the way it present ^^

Gp no.11: tree and immortals

12th gp~
gp n0.14: this one really huge!
AND this is the psycho one, i really love it!

My stupiak lappy rebel during my holiday

2009-09-26T21:53:00.002+08:00

Open folder or anything wun show on the task bar....
got taskbar but no task showing there, so if i minimize them, i need to reopen them again,
or going to Alt + Tab to switch to it....
or open my task manager.....sucks...

i bought it for 2.5 years baru it started to enter its rebellious stage of life....
Work for 13 hours everyday in my holiday,
plus its raya time and im take care of the Fair section,
u can see all the clothes like the soil kena digged.....shapeless....mountain-like....
foot keep cramp until now if im not moving my foot, its cant bend...
sucks till the end....
next time i will try to avoid working during raya time, or any peak season time,
and i will try to avoid working at Pacific again.

Ester Dean ft Chris Brown - Drop It Low (from More Than A Game)

2009-09-16T01:37:00.005+08:00

Gosh, i like it.......

From pusat satelit bumi to Yaki-yaki japanese buffet?

2009-09-16T00:56:00.004+08:00

Sunday, we went to jog, there was me, carol, victoria and ssien plus another pair of "lover" - tang pon2 & her buddy~
Out of sudden, we decided to turn right where we suppose to turn left which will head to Bukit Expo.
So....we collected 4 golf balls along the way, each person satu biji as souvenir.
Pass the golf field, we were reaching the big road. Beside us is stadium.
Luckily we still remember the track to Bukit Expo during our UPM marathon loooooooooooooooooong time ago~

Along the way, we met LRT to KLIA, and................Pusat Satelit BUMI!
BUMI man! It sounds like we, group of ppl standing beside that place is from Mars.............
From the "Earth satelite centre", we talk about Yaki-yaki japanese buffet, located in front of Lowyat Plaza.
We-----me and ssien decided to go on the next day!
Yup, right....Monday, skipped PKK and our lovely clinical biochem lectures just to the buffet, why?
Coz its only for RM18.90! from normal prize RM65 to RM18.90 man.....
Attention: this promotion only till 30 of sept and on weekdays only.
thats why loh........

Hmm...the choice is not that many but still good though, with all the jelly, salmon, shark, bbq, ice cream, fruits and their warm service.
Its worth to give a try =)

We were the last lunch time customer leave there...hehe....then we hang out at Times Square for a while as ssien managed to buy a ethnic style dress for RM25.
Until now im still full...full with salmon, sushi and etc........wohoh~

Wings Restaurant 回音石民歌餐厅 20090911

2009-09-13T14:11:00.003+08:00

Sorry, i lazy to upload to here, and quite troublesome to arrange it.
So...pls view all the pics at my facebook la....thanks...hehe....Wings Restaurant 回音石民歌餐厅 20090911

After our parasito test, we suppose to dance "Tell me your wish"~
but when dayana reach my room and talk with jacklyn n yanling them about the K-17 got talent thing...
LOL some of my coursemate laugh about the title "K17 got talent", sounds so Susan Boyle, ahahhah
Then, dayana go and fetch her sister and balik.
So, tak jadi menari loh...

After i wandering, touch here and touch there....
i decide to go to Wing's Restaurant, located at Seri Kembangan with my chinese coursemates.
It turn out to be a quite pleasant outing, due to the good atmosphere, the melodious song sing by singers.
My maryland chicken is damn big for me....i seriously can't finish it....
feel like my zip is going to burst!
13 of us had a good time especially when we found out their upper floor got such a good design~
sofa, chess, magazine (hoho...keep thinking magazine in korean- called "잡지", hoho....)
Goh, Pak and jiwei turn on their model mode pula...
started to pose and take pic, hahaha....thats a lot of fun!!!
The background is perfect to take artistic pic!
but, coz its too dark and we dun have tripod so the effect a bit.....OFF....hahahaha....

Really enjoy that night, even though i still think going back 10pm is quite early for me~
Night is still young baby! LOL

Funny scene:
1. Tang pong2 and ban shui debate the issue of "On heat VS On sun"....cold....
2.Ah ken's suspicious hand on the french fries.....

Pre-k17 got talent incident

2009-09-13T13:42:00.004+08:00

After we performed in Fac night, dayana and me still continue our dance journey as she go to Dance Studio - Urban Groove to properly learn dance style like popping, locking and hip hop from professional dancers.
Me? I wanted to go, but my money runs too low until i can't join at all,
maybe next sem then i will start my dance journey, i think.....

Lack of purpose or determination in dancing is making me feel a bit weird,
so, we try to join as performance dance crew in the "K17 got talent", we seriously want to perform on that night!!!!
Since they encourage us to take part in the competition so im joining as singing and dayana as solo dance.

Finally, im able to approach Bilah to talk about the performance stuff,
5 person performance and this and that.
On that night, when im at the Wing's restaurant enjoying my photographer + model instructor role, she smsed me said no more performance and asked us to join the competition as group dancer.
Frankly, i think not many people will join if we join the competition,
due to the stress and this and that.
Doing performance is way better and joyful than we are the one who receive critics and fight for the prize. Hiaks....
Although jacklyn and yan ling say the 1st prize is really really good, but......i have no confident in my dance....

Called dayana, decided to see the situation first then decide the next step.
I duno how Lianne and hkee will think about this idea......argh! headache...
"Tell me your wish" is a really elegant dance~
and i want to mix "Circus" and "La Cha Ta" but seems can not.....huhu...

So, i started to prepare my singing for the audition,
and....AM I SUPPOSE TO STRIKE TO THE FINAL ROUND OR WHAT?!
bored to the end of the world.....

Next monday, after clinical biochem and dayana's japan class, hopefully can practise the dance with Lianne and Hkee =)

2PM leader Jae-bum leaving korea

2009-09-08T22:21:00.005+08:00

You know? a man killed because he didn't know "Nobody" by Wondergirls. Im speechless.

okay, back to main topic.
Im sorry if im getting to emotional here.....
I seriously disappointed of netizens or antis....
this kind of thing also they can make a tsunami in 2PM leader Jae-bum's life...
not only gave a formal apology statement in the fans site,
now he is leaving Korea?!
What the hell is going on in this world.......
Even though JYP is saying he is not leaving the group, but those antis should just shut their mouth up,
asking him to commit suicide, this and that,
isn't that way too much?

For god sake, he was young that time, its was 3/ 4 yrs ago man,
when he first come to Korea for the 2PM group, sure he felt emotional,
who doesn't get emotional when they left they lovely home to another country?
Even me also will miss home when im here, in UPM, in K17, which is still in Malaysia, and just take 4 hours bus then can reach my hometown...
one of my fren who work in Singapore now also hate that country you know.....
and what the hell they go dig all the things up and say this and that...apa la korang ni...
The most hilarious thing is the netizens now baru dig all other evidence to support Jae-bum, all the word he left for his American fren about how he like Korea this and that (which is also long time ago).
I shall take the word from the Daily K Pop News, "Love for Korea revealed too late..."

Im not really a 2PM fans but their "Dirty eyed girl - Brown Eyed Girls' Abracadabra parody" in Wild Bunny is damn funny!
The making of this parody is lagi kelakar!
I not really know how this matter is happened in Korea, but its seems like very serious,
i think they really pressing Jae-bum on this matter.
As i know, Chris Brown was abusing Rihanna before right? and all the court stuff.
But, i do agree with a person's comment in youtube as he is a musician / artist,
even his private life is sucks, this is not concern to his singer career.
You can't deny that Chris Brown is unique in singing or dancing right? same goes to Jae-bum.
I am not saying that Jae-bum should be forgiven, isn't it is a waste that such a talented person leaving our music world bcoz of what he said 3/ 4 yrs ago?

Sunway Pyramid yesterday version + today version

2009-09-06T20:38:00.006+08:00

Out of sudden, Dayana and me decide to go Sunway Pyramid to watch "Battle Ground" dance competition which organised by Astro.
SO..........

Yesterday version
We, 5 ppl, reach there around 12pm, GUESS what? Its TOMORROW!!!!!!!
Flood by the damn disappointed feeling, we settle our lunch at RedBox, where dayana & me keep dancing SNSD "Tell me your wish", "Circus" and SHINee "Love Like Oxygen", the Jacklyn is keep picking 40's and 80's songs........ =.=
okay, that is 3 of us, and another one ----> Carol was SLEEPING>>>>>in the redbox......
and menwai went for shopping.

After that, we wandering inside the mall for 1 hour with breads
then.....we decided to go for the Final Destination 4.
Seriously, i wun watch that damn movie no matter how they persuade me about "Its not a horror movie la...", "Its a thriller la...", "Its not scary la..."
No, it is a NO. Full stop.
Luckily the ticket were sold out, so HAHAHAHA! i no need to watch it!
Next, we continue our wandering again.

Due to carol & dayana hungriness, we heading to "Italiannies".

Menu...

Olive oil + alcohol-smell vinegar

Our Lasagna...tak sempat take d whole one punya pic...

"Angel hair pomodoro" ----> Bigger than carol's face, huhu..

It was a splendid dining i must say!
I definitely will go there again and again!
Food portion is big, price is considered cheap if we sharing all the food, and the lagsana is 8888ing tasty!!!
I was so tired as im sleeping in the car till we reach k17...huhu....

Today Version
All of us are very tired of yesterday outing,
so today just me and dayana.
We reach there, buy burger king then sitting right behind the place they dance.
My butt is so in pain as if it can scream like a old lady....
They start around 1pm and we've been not moving from that spot from 11 to 4.......
I really learnt a lot from the audition, from locking to new school, from popping to hip hop and tons of dance style.
All the dancer are awesome!!!
The one making me mouth opening is the blond girls group doing the Basement Jaxx "Oh my gosh", their movement so sharp and seducing!!!!
I bet all the guys at there started to nose bleeding already, wakakaka!!!
Well, Malaysia is full of surprise for me as im used to watch US Dance crew and korean artists dance =)
Good Job Malaysia dancerszzz!!!

草香.歌姬

2009-09-01T02:18:00.004+08:00

有时真的很想看星星

有时很想回到过去，

回到我们的时代

草香，湿润的味道

好久没嗅到了

温暖，什么是温暖

麻木，

我该麻木了吗

也许我真的老了，

不想看不想管不想听不想说

太爱他了

寂寞，太爱歌姬

无法想象生命中没了他

我们是白老鼠吗

那我是黑色的那只

呼唤雨水

呼唤风

轻声细语的

让我融化吧

Heart irritable

2009-08-27T01:53:00.003+08:00

Im rushing my physio lab report which im doing the 1st to 3rd question plus putting the graph of the "Frog Heart" into words form.
8888ing graph keep copy as double set into the words, so i just let it be and let the combiner to settle herself.
I've done my best bout the result graph & im officially give up, pls dun blame me for that or else.
AND i want to done my clinical biochem lab report (26/8/09 - Practical 5).
I shouldn't take any drink contained caffein at all!!!

My heart is irritable.....
not the pathologic irritable heart, but the "itchy" of my heart.

Result from the caffein contained drink = fluctuating mood, impatient....and bla bla bla...

Now i only managed to finish my phyiso lab report as i was informed about the part i should do today and it should be pass up by this friday.
Man....im going back my hometown this friday la....
i still got my mountainlicious like girlfriends waiting for me behind my house yo know,
i haven't done my intro part of clinical biochem as it suppose to include the test principle of all the plasma TG, TC, HDL and LDL + their normal range.
bla bla bla.....
man, you see la....this is the typical result of "irritable heart" ------nagging like a grandma.....

Now im 8888ing sleepy and tired,
and i cant let my girlfriend wait anymore....how....tell me why.....

Quotes

2009-08-24T16:51:00.003+08:00

Eventhough i already set my priority last sem,
but my mind still wandering around others......
Now, its time for me to decide.

"Don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life...
Relationships work best when they are balance."
This is what happened between me n siew. Balance.
Our care for each other are balanced.
Thats why we can further our relationships to a stage i never share with others.

"Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you doesn't need it,
and the person who dislikes you won't believe it."
I've been look through this situation,
as i know explaination is useless when the person is having preconception on you.
It doesn't matter what happen after that,
once anything just happened to be unfavorable for he/she, the situation turn back to its original state.
And the person who likes you from his/her bottom heart does not need any explaination at all.
It's true.

"We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us."
I think i had make my family esp my mum cried for me dozen times.....
and i did cry for those who never care for me,
i did care for those who will never cry for me.
It is silly.
So, i'm setting my priority now.
I'm trying to make them who care for me smile......

Disasteruos Test 1 in 2009

2009-08-20T23:44:00.003+08:00

Seriously,
if it isn't because of H1N1, im sure i will fail all my test 1 paper.......
im not joking!

It suppose to have my parasitology test 1 on the day im also having my fac night performance,
and because im so engross into the dance, basically i can't and no mood to study at all.

Thanks to the quarantine "holiday",
i managed to rest for a week, then continue the test 1,
luckily the fac night and the CAD were held before any test,
so im sincerely thank god for the best arrangement~

Okay,
now im finished my disasterous test 1 in my 5th sem 2009/2010,
im officially FREE!!!!!!
I can plant all the crop in my Happy farm, Barn Buddy, FarmVille and etc,
can jaga them to prevent my dear friends from stealing my precious crop, muahahahhah!
I can watch all the documentary i downloaded.....wow! Suddenly i feel i am geniusssss~ muahahaha!
I can watch my Katekyoushi hitman reborn, my One Piece, my Bleach, my japanese drama, my SHINee yuhanam series,
I can practise the "Circus" + "Tell me your wish" + "AMIGO" dance,
I can this this this and that that that (pls use your imagination lah)

And because of these imagination, i can't sit properly to study my pathology yo no.....
The monsterous test 1 is oxidise my brain and i can't even think properly,
thanks to Carol and other fellow junior + housemate, i can jog regularly and dance regularly,
life is soooooo good with all these motivation, muahahahaah....

P.S suddenly i want to sing sing and sing....

Creationi-evolution controversy

2009-08-16T00:51:00.008+08:00

This is something i come across when i browse through the very super famous youtube.
Okay, i ain't talk about all these shit debate here, coz i had no idea about these stuff at all.

Creation ----> God maybe?
Evolution ----> Something stated in my primary science textbook.
Controversy ---> Debate. Something i called cat fight.

Yeah, u're right. Human version of cat fight.
you can't blame me dude, this is what i've got when i google "cat fight" kay!

Check the adorable cat fight in youtube, just type "venomfangX" and i bet 1000 rupiah on myself that you will get a lot of interesting drama =)

The argument reminds me to the previous post bout the FSA 3000 (Philosophy of Science).
I think i will take this as elective course next sem, dun care if i need to do the dictionary thickness killer assignment.
Probably bcoz of my pure ignorance on this topic, it makes me want to know what the hell are they blabbing about....
Sounds good right? coz the cat fight wun stop here as long as human still on the earth LOL

Danceformer virus a.k.a H11N5 mouse flu virus

2009-08-15T01:21:00.003+08:00

Okay,
thanks to Dayana,
i exposed to something called "dance-former virus",
Its highly contagious,
You are a goner once u infected.

Clinical features?
Constant K-pop fever for months, unexpected robotic motion, insanity towards anything got d-a-n-c-e on their surface or inner part, Uspot hormone deficiency and pruritis butt.

Diagnostic method?
1. Farhana Marah method.
2. Butterscotch tape for d butt ( not anus dude!)

Treatment & prevention?
Sorry.....according to the Sin Chao newspaper, there are no prevention method currently due to the highly mutation turn over rate of danceformer virus aka H11N5 mouse flu virus.

Treatment:
One & only ---> 100x Uspot hormone injection intravenously.

Now, who can gimme d uspot hormone?

안녕요~ (An Nyong yo)

2009-08-14T21:40:00.005+08:00

Omg......
I seriously can't pull me off from all the korean stuff!

First is the SHINee dance,
then is my elective korean level 1.....
damn addictive yo know.....

Today afternoon was my first korean reading test,
imagine this....
Dr. Kim's wife - our course coordinator ->

fluent in English
i understand everything she talks about,
teach Korean way way way (100x) better than her husband
and she is Yea Po yo~! (Yea Po = pretty / beautiful)

5 Sentences, which u must read them to the computer as she is recording them,
each sentence got 30 or 40 secs,
and for god sake!
its not something like "i love you", "i hate you", "im hungry" or "i want to sleep" okay?!
IMAGINE THAT........ ||.||

I am damn sure my stress hormone was shooting up to my hypothalamus while i write all the romanation of those sentences.....
0n top of all, while im recording, i realized i missed "translate" one word...its the 입(pronouce as "ip")...before the normal 니다 (Ni-Da).
So, i was stuck there....for 5 secs maybe? then say "Im-Ni-Da" out loud.....
$%^%&&!@##$$^*_(*

this korean reading test is definitely take my breath away + shorten my life for 1 year maybe? O.o
but i like it!

now then, the physio test 1 baru come across my mind.....lalala....
everynothing will be okay, everynothing will be alright.....

CAD 2009?

2009-08-08T12:21:00.002+08:00

Yup, today is our annual CAD night.

Dress? i borrowed.
Shoes? old one.
necklace and bla bla bla? sorry, my necklace putus liao....=S

Still recover from the dance mode....
darn tired....but i like it.
Still got a bit sad coz din give 100% yesterday night and been shoot by some ppl when we are told to eat at table....
Seriously no mood bcoz of that.
PLS la, we are not the one who SENDIRI sit down and eat k!
SOME MANAGER & AJK told us to sit there de k!
If you want to blame someone, pls blame the person, dun shoot us pls.
Total failure Fac night...blek!

Damn pissed off!

So, what im doing now?
Cook........
Wash my mountain like laundary.....
try to get back to the nerd student track....coz this coming monday is our lovely Clinical Biochem test 1.
Talking about Clinical Biochem, the voice of our dearly Dr. Zalina is very piercing!
Pak even ask me :"how can her husband stand this?!"
LOL, well i duno....Love is blind right?

Hope i can resist the tempation of K-pop....
yeah....2NE1..SHINee...Big Bang...SNSD....SuperJunior....
but i'll still update their k-pop latest news.

"Tell me your wish" by SNSD

2009-07-30T21:33:00.007+08:00

Because of SHINee and their dance break on 25th with SNSD, i discover this song.
The remix of "Juliette" and "Tell me your wish" (the song during dance break) very nice!
So, dayana decide to put it between "Love like oxygen" and "replay" as a dance break as well~!

090725 SHINee + Girls Generation - Juliette Remix Dance Break

They put their head under SNSD girls you know!
Damn it!
Minho & Jonghyun look like enjoying it >.<>.<

Okay, talk about quarantine in K17.
Please, no quarantine okay....
only for those suspected case,
so actually we can freely go in and out loh...
We went to Mid Valley today, but im too tired, im slept when they busy choosing cloths, especially Goh, wakakkaka!

Back to main topic.
SDSD or can called as Girls Generation,
i like their song - "Gee" and the recent one "Tell me your wish" (or "Genie").
Kind of cute!
I really sunk in this K-Pop thing already....haih.....

SNSD "Tell me your wish" or "Genie" MV

SHINee in my current life....

2009-07-28T12:31:00.002+08:00

Seriously.
I can't stop loving them......
They r what i search online evryday now~
I love the Juliette remix dance break on 25 july!!!!
but why they put their head under SNSD girls!!!
ARGH!!! >O<
and the stupid MinHo looks like enjoying! grrrrr.........

Omg...Amigo vs Lady gaga.....

2009-07-21T01:55:00.006+08:00

Seriously, this is not a joke.
You better listen to this song.....damn it....make it so nice!!!!
You will know what i mean after you go to this website......

MasaMIXES.com
btw, i had download them!!!
K-Bootie Volume 2 (whole album)
K-Bootie Volume 1 (few songs only)
J-Bootie Volume 1 (10 out of 11 songs)
J-Bootie Volume 2 (whole album)
LoveMashed (recut single) - i only got d first song
Masa vs TABOO (mash-up single) (whole album)!!

The remix is just too good.....no words can explain my feeling now...
respect him......

"Replay Cover team" is not the real SHINee

2009-07-19T01:08:00.003+08:00

Here, what i found in youtube.
"Replay Cover Team"
You won't believe this.......all of them are girl............
OMG>>> i was like jaw dropping.....can't pasang back already.....
I wish i can do like that, these girl are so young and dance so nice!

Utada's "this one" is spinning in my head,
go to karaoke with Dayana & her sister this afternoon,
We done a bit of "Love like oxygen" choreography by repeat the MV over and over again,
a lot of kids keep look into our room!
and one of the father also look inside as his son keep looking at us.............you know, the FATHER?!
What the hell lah.....we ain't do anything you know!
We just stand and move a bit only.....

Then, we straight go fetch Hkee and back K17 to practise,
"Replay" is almost done & "Love like oxygen" still need some practise,
i like the way we all dance, look nice!
BUT......i wish i could dance like Taemin!!!!!
Oh~ my taemin, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!!!
LOve Y0u so much!!!!!!

Sorry......

2009-07-17T00:12:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i screwed up tonight performance.
Forget the lyrics & everything like rubbish..............................................
sorry........................
sorry jun fook........................
sorry.............................................................................

shmily

Idle

Tumblrrrrrr shooting

bersihkan lab mouse life

Finale of my Biomedical science degree life

Roller coaster chapter 1

Blistering blister

Rule ya!

2nd Malacca trip

Eyes opening

苦与甘

Diary 2011

Feed my savage beast beb!

House Rulez

飘渺

腐女

Winterplay. A fusion jazz band

穿

Corrupted ingredient

都是烦

出游记

感情局

Like mouse

Deep condolences

老鼠乐

Proxy freak & lucky theory

Uspot is back

Abuse act

USpot hater

Mr. M

消化不良

No title

Blue han-gul

Mycotoxin in rice?!

Shojo manga fever

Malaysia's thought bout *beep*

Dosai, dhosai, tosai, thosai, dvashi?

言。情。

第二轮就failed了

Blue Saturday

IMR: Thoughts bout UKM & UPM Biomedics

心系于喜

Bleach anime last filler!

Masic & Masamixes K-bootie Vol 3

Hanakaseru Seishonen 花咲ける青少年

DCE & K-fever

Pandora Hearts 潘多拉之心 & Pandora Hearts Original Soundtracks

장래희망

Fancy tool

Oh, Peter

A.N.JELL

During my Biostastistic Test 2....

Broken necklace

Sick worm attack!

李健《傳奇》 - 王菲2010於中國央視春晚上演唱之歌曲

李健《傳奇》王菲2010複出演唱歌曲原版

王菲 傳奇 2010央視春節聯歡晚會 HD

睡 越

새해 복 많이 받으세요!

Lesson of the day : Zero tolerance to sexual harassment

My latihan industri

姫神 Himekami

1.59 Charity Show presented by MYHOTTEST2PM 30/1/2010

Bioradiation 시험

Tweet Tweet!

Vampire addiction 2

What happened to Malaysia on Jan 2010?

2010 New Year with SBS, KBS and MBS Gayo Daejoon music festival

500mg Ciprofloxacin

Mo-od

Missing post 1: holiday 09

Free from Exam virus!

Slack off

Kim Tae Woo 김태우,金太佑 - T-virus

Bump To These Fresh K-Pop Remixes!

지드래곤 - 버터플라이 리믹스 (ft. 산다라, 진정) / G-Dragon - Butterfly Remix

Top 30 Hottest Hunk in Malaysia 23 Oct 2009

First Ladies Night at Euphoria, Ministry of Sound, Sunway pyramid

被不知啥人的幸福点到。。。。

Im in love with RIng Ding Dong again and again

Malaysia's thought bout beep

王菲傳奇 2010央視春節聯歡晚會 HD

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