Siew is coming!

Damn SYang, hao lian loh!
keep ask about bf bf thing, blek!
and also very KNS.......

Forget about this boy,
Siew is coming!!
Later i will pick her up in 3 hours at Hentian Serdang!!
Cant wait to see her!!
By now, i want to scold the SYang, chiao!

My hair cut at Arts Creation, Summit, Batu Pahat

I never tot it would be this short..........

From this length.....to.....


This short........
Quite "cool"........make me feel very cold....

Maybe because i never keep my hair longer than the shoulder length and always cut short......
My friends are really not surprised by this hair style loh......
haih.....
i really regret....i do....please believe me.....
I will keep my hair long liao, from now on.....I will.....

Freeze the moment

This morning just finish my pharmaco test 1.
5 Qs divided into sooooo many sub Qs......luckily the lecturer keep extend the time...
Last night drink one cup of kopi O KAO, so sleep around 3.45am, wake up around 10am.
Bob's mother miscarriaged and need to do operation, his mak long (eldest mak cik on father side) just passed away and then, when me and kak fizah accompany him and study together, he received call that his father having heart attack.....
In this situation, it will be no use if he stay and take the test, he won't be able to answer them 100% and he need to rush home asap.
Finally, kak fizah fetch him to the bus station in the early morning. Leaving me and jo stay at k17.
I duno what can i do for him as im one of the rats. maybe just beside him is enough......
im the girl and jo is the boy, so anything happened, guy sure refer to guy right? but, sometimes feel the need to do something but bcoz of my gender, i can't do anything among them.
Friday, i will be going home, my lovely BP.
Chengchin seems to be very bored and need accompany?? saturday will be meeting all of gang members on his request. Frankly, im longed for a real gathering,,,hope this year CNY can make my dream come true as i will be damn busy and stuffed with exam, journal, lab report, assignment and discussion right after i come back from CNY.
The voice in my ears now is jordin sparks. Thanks to bob's download. 15GB of new english song album of various singer =)
Sometimes, i hope i can freeze the moment and taste the feeling - in chinese, 细细品尝当下的感觉, perhaps i can find my true hope in there, perhaps? perhaps and perhaps.

Envy

Reading chaa yehh blog, i feel envy..really envy…

Really envy they can go here go there…with all the friends..

Haih,,,,and i only can waiting all my friend come back to BP then can go out lateh lah and other….

Seeing them (those UMS friends) go here go there, enjoy food and enjoy travelling around Sabah, im sooooooo envy!!!

In UPM – universiti perperiksaan malaysia….my life is filled with test, exam, assignment and other unnecessary things…..=.=

Frankly, i am having a kind of phobia…..examphobia….phobia to exam….really no mood to look that those lecture notes….

The night before my physiology of cardiovascular & respiratory system final exam, i encounter my mum about my thought, about my real feeling about my course…i never tell my mum about my study…

Mum told me just finish the degree then later i can continue with some accountant course or other fei fei stuff. However, the problem is i don’t have the zest in anything now…mum told me to fight for the best result…but actually before this, the thing i ever fight is my STPM, cause i scared i can’t enter local U with my lousy result, then my life will be ended by some misery job….scary….

Maybe because i already achieved my goal, and i don’t know what my next goal….so…im been in this idle state…really idle…

Tonight is my IT test and yet, i haven’t touch the lecture note~ pening….

oh my god...im tagged by hui ying...=.=

1. How old are you?
-20+1

2. Are you single?
-Yeap...

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
-i dun think i will get maried

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
-this person didn't exist.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
-.......huh?

6. Do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional church wedding?
-beach plus garden

7. Your ideal motif?
-baby

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
-my house maybe..?

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
-if i decide the invitation, then it will be 60

10. Do you want an extravagant or a simple wedding?
-simple but fun (same like huiying =D)

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
-i prefer traditional...

12. How many layers of cake do you want to have?
-5

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
-simple place

14. When do you want to get married, evening or morning?
-Evening

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
-whatever

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
-duno...decide later la~

17. no ques.. jump!

18. Name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding.
-hehe...country...and soft rock =P

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
-Night cat

20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
-light but a bit solemn

21. What age do you want to get married?
-no age

22. Describe your ideal husband.
-a man & love me

23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
-traditional chinese banquet with normal spoon & fork

24. Champagne or red wine?
-both =)

25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
-Days after

26. Money or household items?
- huh??

27. Who will pay for the bills?
-share lo...

28. Are you ready for married life?
-not yet

29. Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
-yeap

30. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
-yup, of course lah!

31. How many kids do you want?
-one or two

hehe....
i tag
Siew
Su peng
Soon peng
Bee yan
Qiao gee
ting ting
carol =P

my father

recently i use up all my meal plan, now left RM12 only.
then i ask mum to banking some money to me,
then mum say ok.
the next day, ah mei sms me say mum banking rm100 to me.
mum give rm50, dad give rm50, the dad's rm 50 suppose to use to go for a blood test...
dad is quite unwell recently,
before i come back from chinese new year, one night he was having some breathing problem and keep sweating cold sweat...look like getting to stroke...
then, ah mei also didn't tell me all the story, just say one night......
then i call mum, ask her what happen and ask her to take back the money and take father to hospital for body check up.
then mum say, he doesn't want to go.
mum ask me to sms father at night, asking him to take care of himself and go for a blood test.

suddenly i feel like want to cry.
i realize i can't afford to lose my father.
how im going to do without my father is around..
he is my mental support, now i realize..
then im study now, can;t go out and work.
if something happened to him, how we going to do?
i think i need to quit my study and work.
quiting it means i quit it all, my future, my dream....but how im going to do?

im worry bout him, im worry bout everything...
i don't want he got anything bad happened to him..
i haven't be nice to him, haven't xiao4 shun4 him...

and now,,,i haven't start study about my biochemistry test..
my pointer is drop, lousy...
even my friend also can't believe i got this kind of point...

what should i do...
im not in the mtm list already.
means im not related to anything bout mtm anymore..
feel quite sad actually, coz this is the one i want, but seems like im not the one they looking for...
quite angry with myself, disappointed...and disappointed again...

where is my place?
where am i?
where should i put myself?
no where i think.

its over, its all over, and i need to think about father, my father, he is my father.
even he is not that good but still he is my father.
my father.