Rule ya!

Still have another, uhm...35 days till i can BREAK FREE!
Finally, im going to graduate!
Yay! I can't wait to start my whole new chapter of life.
Guess what? I'm going to get myself a danboard, a driving license, a brand new handphone and plenty of trip & travel after all this shit gets over!
I'm so going to take a road ahead and go!
Malacca trip with family first, Korea trip with loved Siew maybe.
Screw the bloody hell 2012 or something-look-a-like, i'm in charge of my life now!
Well, i'm not a missionary type of person. I'm a selfish bitch.
Try to get into my fishy zone if you want to get stink with me, i'm promise ya, no pain, no gain =)))
Oh, perhaps i'm just getting a little bit hype over here, some coffee job, ops, sorry.
I'm not a drunker, no, well, occasionally.
I must be crazy right now thinking bout all this, all i ever got to do is finish my result part 2 and start squeezing my discussion. Vomit out intro & literature review afterward.
Uhm...must be the "Redang island trip" coke. 
Tomorrow is my redang trip day with another 2 pretty-cool-crazy biachi. Threesome sounds nice for me as i prefer some loneliness right now. I wanna enjoy the wind, the sea, the fish and the people!
Till then, stay tuned my love, ain't left ya'all out of this. 


PS. 니가 필요해, 좋아해, 보고 싶은데, 경우에도 니가 몰라요.

2nd Malacca trip

Going to Malacca wasn't my intention in the 1st place due to all the fuss bout symposium i went last weekend, i'm quite tired to start a trip.

But, BOO! I'm going Malacca anyway coz i want to PLAY HARD.

1 hour of chit chatting bout Japanese language with Ah Pak (SSS = driver) made me realized actually i'm pretty much familiar with some common sentence  in Japanese. Hm...some credit to those BG & BL PC games i played.

We went to restaurant number 88! Haha, this number is so lucky. I have the chance to eat something Ah ken recommended......................Nyonya Laksa!!

Seriously, it is sour, spicy and loaded with meat. Lovin' it! The curry-look-alike below is Baba laksa! No santan but something like milk was put to bring out the laksa flavor, a little bit of milk sweet as you savor the laksa soup.

 Well, this one is a real stuff. Durian Cendol! I couldn't see the durian flesh there, i think they make it into some kind of creamy paste. I never knew durian can make cendol taste so special (in a good way LOL). 4 stars for this!!

Picture below illustrated DURIAN PUFF!! It was so tasty till the durian cream was burst our of SSS's mouth, muahahha! Thanks SSS for the entertainment-ness. 4 stars for this too! The shop is just beside "88" with 8 steps distance.

 

Next is our final and the ultimate intention of this Malacca trip. 

Mille Crepe from Nadeje restaurant ! 

Thousands layer of crepe are filled with cream and mousse! I love the texture in my mouth, especially the original flavor. Light sweet with some honey-like fragrance had abducted my taste buds. I bet this will beat secret recipe up if they open their outlet at KL.

 

Exhausted after all the rush bout my "material and method", im so dead tired so i slept all the way back K17.

*The bigger the pressure i've got, the stronger the urge to free myself out of this shyt. Blah, teenage rebellion? Guess so.

Oh ya, credits to my roomie for these pics!

Eyes opening

After attending the biomedic symposium, i realized i need a change. i mean an extreme makeover. From presentation style to my future view. I tend to narrow my sight due to my lack of confidence and more.

Things can be totally different if i hold them in another way.
I need to be creative, innovative, meticulous and most importantly BE BOLD.

Seriously, i never regret of be friend with some person in my course. They open my eyes to a wider view, not to become a typical chinese and learn to be a enjoyably and capable person.

I never forget how things changed in my eyes as i observe everything flow around me. For those who persist till the end, i admire you. For those who changed for the better, i envy of you. For those who seek for a new direction, i am going to learn from you.

I've been asleep for 3 years.

For this last semester, i want to race in my full speed and challenge myself to a higher potential.

I want to see where i am capable to reach after what i had achieved in my STPM.

Such a regret that i didn't make "TO WIN" as my goal in this symposium, meh....instead I'm doing "AVOID BEING EMBARRASSED /LOSE FACE". Perhaps thing will be different if i determined to win in the first place.Uhh, after a second thought. Nope. Because my presentation style is just WAY OFF compared to others. This kind of thing can't build overnight, so meh... take it as a lesson so i can do much much better in my VIVA later =))))

I am so fortunate that i was not choosing other PKK course except for life cycle for this semester. Transgenic & Medical Biotech did actually help me a lot in understand things outside my "skin cancer mouse model" box. Plus, Ethnopharmacology really boost my confident & knowledge about my FYP. Everything is related. Thanks for my sane which comes around last minute, thanks god.

And thanks god for letting me taste some heavenly seafood in Kuantan!

苦与甘

有时觉得自己真的是有点那个的。。。
深知自己是个需要外来动力才能向前走的人，不然你就会看到我继续的颓废下去，蘑菇就一直种一直种。
茅塞顿开，是我这一次的感觉。
之前的任性，漠视等等等等都是我的前奏。
看请了自己前面的选择，我一点都不后悔，因为早在几年前我就已经决定和他们呆在一起。
他们才是我的归宿。
责任感？不是，我不是个责任感的人。赋予我的责任只要在我眼中或心中没有重量是个零，更谈不上是个包袱。
不甘于现状？对。我是个有野心的人，不过你们看不到它的方向。
我不会说出：“为了他们” 这种话，因为那是推卸的说辞。
甘心，开心，愿意呆在一起，是我的选择，甘之如饴。

坦白说，我是个喜欢自虐的人。
小说啦，感情啦，课业啦，有虐才能感受果实的甜美嘛。
 看着以前会觉得是“背叛”的事情，淡然是我的感觉。
原来，当我建筑在他的信任上的感情淡然至消失，连所谓的“背叛”都没有impact power了。
当初的要生要死到现在的平淡，我深悟原来一开始就没有所谓的“感情”。
难怪他人总说爱情是盲目的。真的。
冷漠吗？不是。是一开始就以局外者的角度去尝试感受局内者的惊涛骇浪。
真的是超爱自虐的我。

友人说的话，一直让我有肯定又疑惑的感觉。
我没自信能给我的爱人幸福。
是的。这点，我是自卑的。
发放开去追并不是我的勇敢，而是我的逞强。
也许，我们都适合平淡的爱情吧？不求轰轰烈烈，但求细水长流，好让我们以后细细品尝，对吧？
自虐的我配上淡如水却犹如空气般自然的爱情，怪。
来吧来吧，替我把幕帘拉开，让我看看世人所深信又唾弃的感情是怎么个虐法。

Diary 2011

Let me talk this briefly.
It's my final semester.
I have decided.
Im going home and work.
Further study? After i settle my family down, when i finally can "RIP", then i will pursuit what i want. Well, probably "what i want" at that time will be different though.

FYP is making my hair go fuzzy and lesser and lesser =.=
Hopefully i can make it a go.

Others? Not my priority now. I need to be "RIP" then i can continue other stuff.

So, ciao!